Hyper Little Thoughts

So far, my Spring Break is kicking ASS. I went out Sunday night - first to Arben's party, where I met a guy named Bryce. We wound up going to Charlies and dancing till they closed, and went to IHOP for breakfast and talked for two hours. It was such an amazing conversation. Turns out that he's a cancer survivor, and his whole outlook on life was just so deep and meaningful, I just sat there in awe while he was telling me about his experiences. He said he's crazy about me. Hopefully that means I'll see him again.

Last night, work was inSANE. There was a straight boy stripped down to his skivies, all kinds of domestic drama between a couple that was there, mucho gossip shared, and I found out that apparently I have made a name for myself here on the strip because people are talking about me. Irregardless of the fact that some of it was just mean gossip, kinda cool to me - people know who I am now. I'm not just another face in the crowd anymore. Made a niche for myself here:)

Then me and Nando shot the shit after work over a couple of cocktails and went out to make last call at Charlies. Eric got us back for all the Margarita Nights we got him Sloppy at. He was freepouring, and the shots were as big as cocktails. Didn't get out of bed until an hour ago, and don't have to go anywhere until work tonight. For the moment, life is good.

Plans for today include: working on Kate's SPSS stuff, watching a movie, and getting this dump cleaned up. By then it'll be time for work. I'll go to work, and go out afterwords. Good times.

I have studied and read till I just can't study or read anymore. My brain is mush! Do you hear that professors! You have mushed my brain. Biznitches. Yes, I did just say that. I'm hopped up on Caribou Coffee and internet porn several (yes several!) chocolate bars. That, and I haven't been sleeping much lately. You do the math. Since I have finished studying, I am contemplating going to get a drink. But that would be a bad idea, considering that a)my first final is at 8:45 tomorrow morning, and b)I requested the night off to study.

But honestly - it actually feels kind of good to have spent the day studying. It's the first time in a long time that I've felt like a student. Queer, that is. I haven't actually studied for a test since I was a freshman. Hmm. Ah well. Okay, I'm outta hear. The library is started to give me the creeps - and not in that wholesome "there's a hellmouth under it" kind of way.

First things first - I have a ton of comments and emails from you guys, and I *swear* I will get to them at some point. Don't think I hate you or am blowing you off. I'm in the red zone, here, so I don't have a whole lot of extra time to devote to anything that isn't school/RL related. If it makes you feel any better, I have emails from family that I haven't even opened yet.

( Work )

( School )

( Romance )

( Fic )

( Etc. )

I think that covers all of the bases. As you can probably tell, everything here at Chez Brad has been more than a little hectic. I'm trying to just take it one day at a time, but so far...ugh. I'm looking forward to a few days off.

And as always, I miss you guys! Anything big been going on? Let me know about it. I really do care!

No, I am not dead. Although after this weekend, I wish I were.

Ugh.

The long short of it: work sucked, spent too much money, drank too much, lost my cell phone. again.

Hmm...I guess I am a 21 year old. Go figure.

Hope all is well.

*tap tap* Not sure if this thing is on, anymore.

I still have no internet access at my apartment, so I'm not able to be online, like, ever. And I feel bad because I miss everyone! *shoutout to lunabee34*.

The quickest summary is that everything really sucks right now. There's drama at work, BS at school, bad things happening with the family, and I've pretty much had at least one panic attack every day for the past few days. I think I'm losing my mind.

It'll get better. I'm just under a LOT LOT LOT of stress, and it would really help me if people would stop asking me what I'm going to do when I graduate, and it would also really help if people would stop telling me I'm getting a useless degree. It would also help if people would stop. Just stop.

God it's no wonder I've turned into a quasi-alkie. Christ, it's a suprise the heart attacks haven't started yet.

Anyway, hope everyone is doing well, and I hope that someday I'll be able to actually talk to you again.

It's a good day. Well, not really, but I'm still smiling. I've got this great song going on repeat, and it makes me happy and dancy. Gotta love that.

Turned in my Social Justice paper on time, meeting all the requirements. I had to skip history this morning to finish it, but oh well. Then, in Social Justice class, we talked about sexual orientation, so I got my turn in the spotlight. I'm the only gay person in our Friday group, and someone brought up "Conversion" centers. So, I got to get out my soap box and educate some people. What's really cool is that I actually feel like I got through and maybe changed some ideas and opinions today. I was looking forward to this quarter so much because my of Queer Theory class and my LGBTQ Intro class, thinking that these are the things we would be discussing. So, I was dissapointed when I was unable to talk about these things, which are important to me. But I feel like today I was able to actually do some good. Which makes it worth it for me.

Now I have two and a half hours to finish my Intro paper and get to the Alderman's office to get parking permits. Then I need to do a quick load of laundry for work clothes, maybe take a nap or grab a bite to eat, and get to work. Working 7:30 - 3 tonight, hopefully I'll make some decent dough. Rent is due next week, and I'm positive I'm going to be short. Unless it's a REALLY good night tonight. Notice my lack of caring at this point. Anyway, then tomorrow I work from 3pm-3am with the catering company. I haven't catered in over a month - I hope I remember how. Then Sunday is all mine. Which means the usual - laundry, cleaning, and homework. *sigh* And then it'll be Monday. Weekends just aren't long enough. 48 hours isn't nearly enough time to finish all the stuff I need to before the next week rolls around. But I'm not going to think about that, because then I'll be sad. And right now, I'm forever young.

Title: Learn to be Lonely Chapter 18/?
Author: chocgood84
Rating: NC-17 for brief violence and sexual content
Pairing: BtVS Spike/Xander
Author’s Note: Yes, I am aware that the timeline is a little screwed up and that Giles didn’t own the Magic Box until after Adam and after Dawn arrived. But in my reality, who’s Dawn? Adam what? Also, a huge spanking thanks to kitty_poker1 for being my official L2BL beta.
Disclaimer: These character’s aren’t mine, never were; I don’t get any profit for this hobby, so don’t sue – Thanks.
Warning: Brief violence, nudity, and hetero and homo sexual content and situations. And some h0t man-luvin.

( Chapter 18 )

Whew, today's busy.

1) Finished my history paper (it's 2/3rds of a page short, oh well) and handed it in.
2) Got to my Sexuality exam just in time, and I think I passed it with a flying C
c) Managed to finish up my two extra credit response papers, which brings my midterm grade in Social Justice from a 52 to a 72. yay for c's!
4) Nando just called me: apparently John, the guy who I'm replacing, officially quit last night. I think. Anyway, they're training me on the bar starting tonight. Which means, pretty much, a 50% increase in tips. Thank god, just when I thought I was going to have to start selling myself again for real.
5) Either I'm really really good looking today, or I have something stuck on my shirt: everyone seems to be looking at me. Paranoid, much?
6) Ew. I just ate fried chicken fat, and now I feel disgusting. They were supposed to be chicken strips. Nope. Fat. Gross.
7) My ears popped this morning for the first time since Thursday. Hallelujia, they sang.
8) I still have to write my Queer Theory paper: let's hope I can get it done in 2.45 hours, because that's what I have between my next class and the lecture tonight.
9) mental note: move car from handicapped space before 6pm.

For the moment, my wireless access appears to be working. For the moment.

Just wanted to drop a line and say that I'm feeling much better. I slept on and off from 4:00 yesterday afternoon until about 10am this morning, waking up every hour or so to wander around the apartment, drink some juice, eat some cookie dough or cheesecake, and go back to sleep. My fever broke this morning, and I've been around normal temp all afternoon. Still coughing up stuff, and my nose is all sorts of stuffed up, and my head has felt better days.

But, all in all, I'm about 60% better.

I'm sick again.

Perfect.

EDIT: I bought a thermometer finally. Does anyone know at what temp you should start worrying?