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First things first - I have a ton of comments and emails from you guys, and I *swear* I will get to them at some point. Don't think I hate you or am blowing you off. I'm in the red zone, here, so I don't have a whole lot of extra time to devote to anything that isn't school/RL related. If it makes you feel any better, I have emails from family that I haven't even opened yet.
Work at the bar has been...stressful. There's all kinds of drama and tension and whatnot surrounding the buying/selling of the bar. The current owner(s) have decided not to sell, at the very last minute, making the buyers (which includes two current employees) lose all of the money they've invested. All of the entertainers are up in arms and arguing with each other. All of the employees are dissapointed because none of us can stand the current owner (and manager). On top of this, the current owner is taking all of the money out of the business and putting it up his nose, which means there's no money in payroll. All of our paychecks have bounced, including mine, which puts me in the negative in my account and made me bounce 4 checks. One of the other employees is about a finger's space away from getting evicted because of this. There hasn't been any liquer ordered for a few weeks, so we're running out of everything and hence, running off the customers. It's been really slow because of the weather, and we're all running on empty. It is not a good time right now.
What else is there to say but three months left? Actually, there is a little more. I've got about 4 pages of notes on things I have to change before I can begin my research study. And it's all due within two weeks. So it looks like I'll be spending my spring break working on it. Figures - why should I get a break? We're in finals week right now. I have a paper due at 5 tomorrow, and two exams on Friday - History @ 8:45, and Social Justice @ 11:45, and then I'm off school for a week. These are my hardest classes, so I'm more than a little worried. I think I did pretty well in all my other classes, though. So I guess we'll see. I've also got my schedule for next quarter and I have to say I'm kind of looking forward to it. Classes only Monday through Thursday, no classes before noon. That's how college *should* be. At least, I think so. All I can say is that June 11th can't get here quite fast enough, even though it's scaring me out of my mind. I'm really afraid of the After. You know, when you no longer have classes, and it's time to be a grown up? That scares me. I'm not ready to have a full time job and be all responsible and stuff. I don't want it yet. All I know is that I do want to be done with school.
Whatever. I was supposed to have a date tonight with this guy I met, Michael. But it looks like it's getting pushed back. *shrugs* There's also Mikey, who I think is really very smitten with me. That's Fernando's roomate, and we kind of have a history (PG-Rated as it is), so it's a little complicated. And then there's John, which has always been a little helter-skelter. Let's just make this short and say that really, nothing's changed. Everything's still crazy on this front, and I have no idea when, or if, it'll get better. All I know is I'm sick of waiting, so I'm not doing it anymore. I've also gotten into this confident frame of mind again. Lately, I've been going up to guys and talking to them when I want to, instead of trying to get them to come to me. Not really working any better, but who knows?
I know a lot of you are waiting for the next chapter of Learn to be Lonley, and I know exactly where it's going. I've got it all outlined and everything. I just haven't had the time to sit down and write it. There's also another little project I want to get done. And there's a few other bunnies that have been nibbling lately. Who knows when I'll have the chance to write again.
I bought a new laptop. My old one died on me while I was writing my final paper. I finally got fed up and just went out and bought a new one. I'm trying not to think of the bills. And I'm justifying the purchase as "I need a computer I can trust to finish with school. And I'll definetely need one in Grad School. So there." It's so pretty and shiney and new. I loves it.
I have this weekend off, and I'm contemplating going home to visit for a few days. I need to call the rents and see what's up. I kind of want to, but I really don't. I'd honestly like to just take the weekend off and have it to myself and get some stuff done around here. But I'm also going stir crazy - I need to get out of the city for a while. Maybe I should go home. Who knows when the next time I'll have the chance. I might be able to get some peace and quiet. Maybe. (I know, I know...crazy thoughts, crazy thoughts).
I think that covers all of the bases. As you can probably tell, everything here at Chez Brad has been more than a little hectic. I'm trying to just take it one day at a time, but so far...ugh. I'm looking forward to a few days off.
And as always, I miss you guys! Anything big been going on? Let me know about it. I really do care!
Work at the bar has been...stressful. There's all kinds of drama and tension and whatnot surrounding the buying/selling of the bar. The current owner(s) have decided not to sell, at the very last minute, making the buyers (which includes two current employees) lose all of the money they've invested. All of the entertainers are up in arms and arguing with each other. All of the employees are dissapointed because none of us can stand the current owner (and manager). On top of this, the current owner is taking all of the money out of the business and putting it up his nose, which means there's no money in payroll. All of our paychecks have bounced, including mine, which puts me in the negative in my account and made me bounce 4 checks. One of the other employees is about a finger's space away from getting evicted because of this. There hasn't been any liquer ordered for a few weeks, so we're running out of everything and hence, running off the customers. It's been really slow because of the weather, and we're all running on empty. It is not a good time right now.
What else is there to say but three months left? Actually, there is a little more. I've got about 4 pages of notes on things I have to change before I can begin my research study. And it's all due within two weeks. So it looks like I'll be spending my spring break working on it. Figures - why should I get a break? We're in finals week right now. I have a paper due at 5 tomorrow, and two exams on Friday - History @ 8:45, and Social Justice @ 11:45, and then I'm off school for a week. These are my hardest classes, so I'm more than a little worried. I think I did pretty well in all my other classes, though. So I guess we'll see. I've also got my schedule for next quarter and I have to say I'm kind of looking forward to it. Classes only Monday through Thursday, no classes before noon. That's how college *should* be. At least, I think so. All I can say is that June 11th can't get here quite fast enough, even though it's scaring me out of my mind. I'm really afraid of the After. You know, when you no longer have classes, and it's time to be a grown up? That scares me. I'm not ready to have a full time job and be all responsible and stuff. I don't want it yet. All I know is that I do want to be done with school.
Whatever. I was supposed to have a date tonight with this guy I met, Michael. But it looks like it's getting pushed back. *shrugs* There's also Mikey, who I think is really very smitten with me. That's Fernando's roomate, and we kind of have a history (PG-Rated as it is), so it's a little complicated. And then there's John, which has always been a little helter-skelter. Let's just make this short and say that really, nothing's changed. Everything's still crazy on this front, and I have no idea when, or if, it'll get better. All I know is I'm sick of waiting, so I'm not doing it anymore. I've also gotten into this confident frame of mind again. Lately, I've been going up to guys and talking to them when I want to, instead of trying to get them to come to me. Not really working any better, but who knows?
I know a lot of you are waiting for the next chapter of Learn to be Lonley, and I know exactly where it's going. I've got it all outlined and everything. I just haven't had the time to sit down and write it. There's also another little project I want to get done. And there's a few other bunnies that have been nibbling lately. Who knows when I'll have the chance to write again.
I bought a new laptop. My old one died on me while I was writing my final paper. I finally got fed up and just went out and bought a new one. I'm trying not to think of the bills. And I'm justifying the purchase as "I need a computer I can trust to finish with school. And I'll definetely need one in Grad School. So there." It's so pretty and shiney and new. I loves it.
I have this weekend off, and I'm contemplating going home to visit for a few days. I need to call the rents and see what's up. I kind of want to, but I really don't. I'd honestly like to just take the weekend off and have it to myself and get some stuff done around here. But I'm also going stir crazy - I need to get out of the city for a while. Maybe I should go home. Who knows when the next time I'll have the chance. I might be able to get some peace and quiet. Maybe. (I know, I know...crazy thoughts, crazy thoughts).
I think that covers all of the bases. As you can probably tell, everything here at Chez Brad has been more than a little hectic. I'm trying to just take it one day at a time, but so far...ugh. I'm looking forward to a few days off.
And as always, I miss you guys! Anything big been going on? Let me know about it. I really do care!
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*sends oodles of hugs* That's a lot of crap to deal with sweetie. I'm so sorry it landed on you. Sending hugs and love, because I've missed you, and I truly hope that things get better for you soon!
Love ya,
~Nebula
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For the moment, I'm coasting along perfect fine. Amazing what a few days off can do, eh?
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That shit with the bar sounds unbelievably stupid--how unbelievably lame. I hope something big happens and magically fixes everything. (I always hope that, though, and to date it hasn't actually happened that way--but one can dream, right?)
Get some rest over break, 'kay?
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Thank ya, sweety:)