*deep cleansing breath*

[synapticjava]

Okay...Frankie just came in. As in, the hottest boy I have ever in my life met. He's taking a class here, so it looks like I'll get to see him twice a week! *squee*

See, the thing is - he's got a perfect body, and while he was talking to Grace I couldn't take my eyes off of him. I *want* that. Not him per se, although yes that's true. I want someone to look at me like that. And it's never going to happen unless I do something right now. So...

I'm quitting smoking. Effective immediately, I'm cutting back. I'm only going to allow myself to smoke three more cigarettes today - one at 6, one at 10, and one when I feel like I want it. I'm going to do that for the rest of the week, through the weekend, and then Monday I start on the patch. I'm really scared and sort of having a panic attack, hyperventalating or whatever. But I *have* to do this.

Also, with no smoking, I *will* go to the gym 5 nights a week. I *will* start regulating what I'm eating and drinking.

It's time and...I don't know, I just feel like if I don't do it now I'll never do it and I'll be a fat smoking single queer the rest of my life. So...help.

Comments

[adikala.livejournal.com]

starting with a high number never seems to work.. cause you look at it and youre like 'WOW. five times a week. thats a lot.' and then you do 5, but the next week, youre busy and you say 'oh, ill make up for it the next week' and next week comes and the cycle repeats until you realise that you only went to the gym about 15 times. or maybe youre just cooler than most of us like that. i dont know. good luck, though :) and yay for not smoking

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Actually, you're right. So for now, I'm putting myself in at 3 times a week, and days that I'm bored or feel like it, an extra hour.

[adikala.livejournal.com]

yea, its just... i tried that... REALLY excercising 5 days a week... and it happened just like that before i realised i wasnt doing it at all... so i DID start at 3... and have worked up to 4... im honestly NOT motivated enough to do 5 :P but thats really cool. now all you need is something to keep you motivated! like.. i dunno what. a goal. or a friend whod like to do it too.

[rivulet027.livejournal.com]

I agree, start small and build your way up when it comes to exercise. Don't wear yourself out. Luck with the smoking thing. You won't be single for the rest of your life either, trust me on this one, you'll eventually find someone.

Hope it all works out.

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I don't actually think I'll be single forever, but it is something that scares me.

[reddwarf75.livejournal.com]

I believe in u, u can do it! *bounce bounce*
Marie

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Thanks, hun!

*huggles*

[tsavoritegarnet.livejournal.com]

I'm all for the stopping smoking, and the gym. You can do it!

I missed seeing posts from you while you were on break. I'm happy you're back!

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Awww, thanks, dumpling!

[nightsashke.livejournal.com]

good luck babe...I'm doin all that too...just not my choice this time...heh. *hug*

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Thanks, hun. Good luck to you too! *huggles*

[lunabee34.livejournal.com]

I'm proud of you for cutting back on the cigarettes, babe. As an ex-smoker, I know how fucking hard that is.

*sends good vibes your way*

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Thanks, I'll need all of them that I can get. I still hypervenalate when I even *think* about quitting.

*is askeered*

[caviling]

I'm so proud of you for quitting the smoking. Really; I'd hug you if I was there.

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Aw, thanks:)

It has to be done, sometime - might as well be now.

[wilde-moon.livejournal.com]

Hey, what kind of mp3 player did you get and where? You said you can put word files on it too, right?

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Mine's a Samsung 512mb; got it at Best Buy. Not sure about .doc files, but definetely .txt files.

[wilde-moon.livejournal.com]

So one could, in theroy, read fanfic on it, yes?

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

*snerk*

In theory, certainly. Though the text is probably really small. But yes, in theory.

[wilde-moon.livejournal.com]

Well, no smaller than on a cell phone, and I'd read on that when I could get the damn internet to work on it. *g*

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

True enough. And aside from that, it's just a great gadget to have.