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Okay...Frankie just came in. As in, the hottest boy I have ever in my life met. He's taking a class here, so it looks like I'll get to see him twice a week! *squee*
See, the thing is - he's got a perfect body, and while he was talking to Grace I couldn't take my eyes off of him. I *want* that. Not him per se, although yes that's true. I want someone to look at me like that. And it's never going to happen unless I do something right now. So...
I'm quitting smoking. Effective immediately, I'm cutting back. I'm only going to allow myself to smoke three more cigarettes today - one at 6, one at 10, and one when I feel like I want it. I'm going to do that for the rest of the week, through the weekend, and then Monday I start on the patch. I'm really scared and sort of having a panic attack, hyperventalating or whatever. But I *have* to do this.
Also, with no smoking, I *will* go to the gym 5 nights a week. I *will* start regulating what I'm eating and drinking.
It's time and...I don't know, I just feel like if I don't do it now I'll never do it and I'll be a fat smoking single queer the rest of my life. So...help.
See, the thing is - he's got a perfect body, and while he was talking to Grace I couldn't take my eyes off of him. I *want* that. Not him per se, although yes that's true. I want someone to look at me like that. And it's never going to happen unless I do something right now. So...
I'm quitting smoking. Effective immediately, I'm cutting back. I'm only going to allow myself to smoke three more cigarettes today - one at 6, one at 10, and one when I feel like I want it. I'm going to do that for the rest of the week, through the weekend, and then Monday I start on the patch. I'm really scared and sort of having a panic attack, hyperventalating or whatever. But I *have* to do this.
Also, with no smoking, I *will* go to the gym 5 nights a week. I *will* start regulating what I'm eating and drinking.
It's time and...I don't know, I just feel like if I don't do it now I'll never do it and I'll be a fat smoking single queer the rest of my life. So...help.