*deep cleansing breath*

[synapticjava]

Okay...Frankie just came in. As in, the hottest boy I have ever in my life met. He's taking a class here, so it looks like I'll get to see him twice a week! *squee*

See, the thing is - he's got a perfect body, and while he was talking to Grace I couldn't take my eyes off of him. I *want* that. Not him per se, although yes that's true. I want someone to look at me like that. And it's never going to happen unless I do something right now. So...

I'm quitting smoking. Effective immediately, I'm cutting back. I'm only going to allow myself to smoke three more cigarettes today - one at 6, one at 10, and one when I feel like I want it. I'm going to do that for the rest of the week, through the weekend, and then Monday I start on the patch. I'm really scared and sort of having a panic attack, hyperventalating or whatever. But I *have* to do this.

Also, with no smoking, I *will* go to the gym 5 nights a week. I *will* start regulating what I'm eating and drinking.

It's time and...I don't know, I just feel like if I don't do it now I'll never do it and I'll be a fat smoking single queer the rest of my life. So...help.

Comments

[rivulet027.livejournal.com]

I agree, start small and build your way up when it comes to exercise. Don't wear yourself out. Luck with the smoking thing. You won't be single for the rest of your life either, trust me on this one, you'll eventually find someone.

Hope it all works out.

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I don't actually think I'll be single forever, but it is something that scares me.