Hyper Little Thoughts

I'd forgotten how much it sucks when you're in a relationship and you're angry at that person.

Grrr.

I know I'm a little bit crazy, that's a given. And I've been single for a pretty long time, so I'm kinda new at this. But you know what - I don't think it's totally wierd and cookey to at least acknowledge one month & v-day when you're in a relationship. Also, it kinda seems to me that when you've been dating a month that it comes with certain words, like...together.


GRRR ARRRG

And it's called "Top Design." ZOMG have you seen this show? Firstly, Michael needs to be gone. Now. Also, Erik is amazing!

Where have I been? I'm in love.

And, Veronica Mars - I heart you.

That's odd. I've been puttering around the apartment all morning, reorganizing stuff, getting rid of a bunch of old stuff, cleaning, SCRUBBING; basically an apartment overhaul.

And aside from getting a little emotional going through old momentos and deciding whether or not to toss 'em, I've been making pretty good progress.

All of a sudden, I just want to crawl into bed and wake up sometime next year. Uck. Talk about an energy drain.

I just tried on a pair of pants that I haven't worn in about a year.

Not only do they fit, but I also found a $5 bill in them.

Cool!

Oh yeah, Brian called me at work last night to tell me that Jen, his fiancee, is a couple weeks pregnant! I'm going to be an uncle!

Also, I'll have a new sister next month; they're flying to Vegas next month to get married.

So excited, and so happy for them!

Last night was the first hint of a problem. It also served as a proof that a)gay men are incestuous, b)chicago IS a very small town, and c)a person's past can come back and bite them on the ass.

Todd took me out to a romantic little pub called Moody's for burgers and beer, and afterwards he ambushed me into meeting his friends. Here's where the small town thing comes in. His best friend and I know each other through a common friend. Another friend, Chad, used to be one of my regulars at the bar, and I knew all of his other friends in one way or another - some in good ways, some in not.

Here's where the past/ass thing comes in: I've kinda slept with a few...uh, a couple more than a few, of his friends. And then while we were dancing, a few other guys I used to...know...came up and tried to say "hello!" (not with their lips). I think someone sent out a flyer telling anyone I've ever fooled around with to be there last night. It was encredibly embarassing. Todd took it well though. He said that my past is my past and as long as I'm only his now, that's what matters. How cool is that?

Slight problem though: I met his ex last night. Can we say nose dive? Because that didn't go well at all.

Problem/Not problem - no clue which. I think I'm totally falling. I'm nervous and scared and excited. It really feels so wonderful. But it's an altogether new thing, too. Last night we were supposed to get together after work, but we were both exhausted (I worked from 11am - 2am yesterday, and he put in 12 hours). And he repeated something that he said before but I just now kinda caught it: "baby, I'm not going anywhere. We have plenty of time." And the other night he said he cares for me. And I believe it - that's what's so amazing about it. He keeps leaving me little messages everywhere "have a good day," "thinking about you," "my boy," "so amazing." This is so crazy. Also, there's a pic under the cut that he took of us. Warning: it is gag inducing. You can't really see his face, but the one with both our faces is a little...racy.

In other news, I'm totally stressed out with work. Between both Omax stores and iRi, I don't know whether I'm coming or going anymore. I was up until 2am this morning researching for iRi, and then at 7am I got a phone call from Karin at Omax telling me I need to get their right away because I took a key they needed this morning. So I had to drive down during rush hour to drop off the key, only to have to be back by noon for my shift. That coupled with a bunch of drama going on (seriously - drama? at an office supply store? hell is a very imaginative place, no?) between Matt and Karin and me and the other supervisors. Ugh. Thank god I've got someone trying to keep me sane.

Now I need to hop into the shower and throw on my uniform so I can get to work on time for a change. Bleh. But, it's Friday, and tomorrow's Saturday, and me and Todd are going out. So, yay!

( Piccie under here. )

Firstly - shiny new layout. Thanks for the tip, wilde_moon.

Second, I'm sad to say that Toni Kimbel, my great aunt, passed away Thursday evening. She's had a form of brain cancer which runs in my family for several years now. She's been in a lot of pain for the past few months, and she finally passed. She was a great woman, and she'll be surely missed. But at least now she's no longer in pain.

Third - last night, Vive, Todd & I went and saw The Hitcher. The movie itself was pretty good for what it was. Think Joy Ride meets TCM. More importantly, though, Vive and Todd hit it off. Vive loves him, and he can't wait to hang out with her again. After the movie, we went to Lelia Janes and had a few and sat around talking. It was so great being out with my guy and my best friend and just having fun. Me and Vive stayed after Todd took a cab home (he had to work early this morning - stupid work) and talked...about him. heh. Vive came back here and spent the night, and we had an oink fest while watching the game today. (GO BEARS! wHOOOOT!)

( Fourth - Under a cut because it could get schmoopy. )

I know I'm all update crazy now that I'm back online, but I just had to share some really great news.

The pharmacutical company my mom works for was bought by a new company, and so we've been kind of worried (and her stressed out) about probably losing her job. But these new guys (who she so lovingly nicknamed Beavis and Butthead) hired her on as not only what she was with the old company (as a driver), but as the SUPERVISOR driver. Meaning she makes the shifts and routes and hires/fires people. So she got a promotion. It's only a little more money, but it's a really great thing. She doesn't have to worry about losing her job and the little income it brings my family. And she can breathe a little easier about hating her job so much.

AND, because dad still isn't much better (baby steps, I reminded her), they got the insurance company to caugh up the dough for home health care. So there's a nurse/cna that comes to the house 3 days a week for 5 hours to help my dad, but more to help my mom. She'll be doing the grocery shopping, the laundry, light cleaning. This is so great for my parents.

I've been grinning all day. I'm just so glad that things are working out for them.

Title: Learn to be Lonely Chapter 25/?
Author: chocgood84
Rating: NC-17 for brief violence and sexual content
Pairing: BtVS Spike/Xander
Author’s Note: Yes, I am aware that the timeline is a little screwed up and that Giles didn’t own the Magic Box until after Adam and after Dawn arrived. But in my reality, who’s Dawn? Adam what? Also, a huge spanking thanks to kitty_poker1 for being my official L2BL beta.
Disclaimer: These character’s aren’t mine, never were; I don’t get any profit for this hobby, so don’t sue – Thanks.
Warning: Brief violence, nudity, and hetero and homo sexual content and situations. And some h0t man-luvin.
This can also be found in my LJ Memories, as well as on my website.




( Chapter 25 )