How many days am I going to regret you?

Grrr, I woke up all kinds of cranky today. Stupid bulldozers next door. I swear, as light a sleeper as I am, you'd think I never did live in the city. A little rage left over from work last night I think. It was another spectacularily crappy night. I guess Ev0l Coworker is also Sick Coworker, and whatever it is is pretty serious. She's on all kind of medication and Captain himself made a rare stop by the unit (he's been there once since I started) to check on her. At that point I pretty much threw in the towel - no way to fight something like that. So we've pretty much been passing the shifts in silence. It's not good, because the kids can tell when there's friction and they'll take advantage of that, so I spend all eight hours on red alert. I did find out she hasn't just been shitty with me either, she totally screwed Cari over. Cari took the last weekend in May off because she has baby dr. appointments and she's supposed to find out the sex. So she discussed it with Ev0l Coworker, who said she wouldn't need those days off so go ahead and request it. Cari's request got denied because right after she submitted it, Ev0l Coworker put in a request for the same days afterall - so she can go to a race. Like Cari put it: "Yeah, because that's way more important than finding out the sex of my child." I gave up my weekend and picked up the days so at least she won't have to work with a part timer on those days.

Today is my quit smoking day! And I've already smoked twice! /fail. They warned me - they said throw away and flush whatever cigarettes you have left and I thought "Self, I should be fine, just put them up." First thing I went for this morning. Logic says that I should just chuck the rest right now, but I'm askeered. I think I will, though. I've had enough. I'm tired of them. Also, the drug they put me on for quitting smoking induces VIVID DREAMS, as warned on the box. And let me tell you, you don't know vivid dreams until you dream your cat is floating and doing the side stroke through the apartment and then wake up freaking out because said cat is laying on your face.

Also, for those interested, I should be posting to L2bL later.

Learn to be Lonely Chapter 29

Title: Learn to be Lonely Chapter 29/?
Author: chocgood84
Rating: NC-17 for brief violence and sexual content
Pairing: BtVS Spike/Xander
Author’s Note: Yes, I am aware that the timeline is a little screwed up and that Giles didn’t own the Magic Box until after Adam and after Dawn arrived. But in my reality, who’s Dawn? Adam what? Also, a huge spanking thanks to kitty_poker1 for still agreeing to be my official L2BL beta, even after so much time has passed.
Disclaimer: These character’s aren’t mine, never were; I don’t get any profit for this hobby, so don’t sue – Thanks.
Warning: Brief violence, nudity, and hetero and homo sexual content and situations. And some h0t man-luvin.
This can also be found in my LJ Memories, as well as on my revamped website: Forget It.

( Chapter 29 Starts....here. )

Fan-fricking tastic

Justin and Cari invited me to dinner tonight a few days ago because we never get to hang out outside of work anymore, and we all happened to have today off. I was pretty excited about it.

Cari just texted me saying Brent and Jen are coming too. I like them, they're good friends. But they're a sickeningly sweet new couple. I suddently just became the fifth wheel on a couple's night.

I don't want to be rude and cancel at the last minute, but I really don't think I'm emotionally equipped for that. So, looks like my day off has just become battle of the brain ninjas.

Yeah...bad mood hasn't passed yet.