How many days am I going to regret you?

[synapticjava]

Grrr, I woke up all kinds of cranky today. Stupid bulldozers next door. I swear, as light a sleeper as I am, you'd think I never did live in the city. A little rage left over from work last night I think. It was another spectacularily crappy night. I guess Ev0l Coworker is also Sick Coworker, and whatever it is is pretty serious. She's on all kind of medication and Captain himself made a rare stop by the unit (he's been there once since I started) to check on her. At that point I pretty much threw in the towel - no way to fight something like that. So we've pretty much been passing the shifts in silence. It's not good, because the kids can tell when there's friction and they'll take advantage of that, so I spend all eight hours on red alert. I did find out she hasn't just been shitty with me either, she totally screwed Cari over. Cari took the last weekend in May off because she has baby dr. appointments and she's supposed to find out the sex. So she discussed it with Ev0l Coworker, who said she wouldn't need those days off so go ahead and request it. Cari's request got denied because right after she submitted it, Ev0l Coworker put in a request for the same days afterall - so she can go to a race. Like Cari put it: "Yeah, because that's way more important than finding out the sex of my child." I gave up my weekend and picked up the days so at least she won't have to work with a part timer on those days.

Today is my quit smoking day! And I've already smoked twice! /fail. They warned me - they said throw away and flush whatever cigarettes you have left and I thought "Self, I should be fine, just put them up." First thing I went for this morning. Logic says that I should just chuck the rest right now, but I'm askeered. I think I will, though. I've had enough. I'm tired of them. Also, the drug they put me on for quitting smoking induces VIVID DREAMS, as warned on the box. And let me tell you, you don't know vivid dreams until you dream your cat is floating and doing the side stroke through the apartment and then wake up freaking out because said cat is laying on your face.

Also, for those interested, I should be posting to L2bL later.

Comments

[kitty-poker1.livejournal.com]

Might be best to chuck away those tempting cigs, hon. It's like having cookies in the house when you're trying to lose weight. Apart from the vivid dreams (yoiks at swimming cat!), does the drug reduce the desire to smoke?

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Already flushed:)

It reduces it quite a bit. What the drug actually does is blocks the receptor in your brain a full week before you actually quit. So for a full week before, you're already going through mild withdrawl and not really thinking about it. It's supposed to make it easier.

[tabaqui]

Yes yes, throw them away! Now! Silly. What do you need them for? You are going to be an *ex-smoker*. Ex-smokers don't keep smokes around.
:)

And bah to the chick at work. What a cunt.

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Already gone :D

And yes, yes she is.

*g*

*hugs*

[bipolarbaby.livejournal.com]

i have lovely vivid dreams like that pretty much every night ever since i was a young lol. the other night i dreamed my friend died, someone threw a rock at the base of her neck and it snapped her neck and well she died and the dream was so damn real i woke up in the dream thinking that that is what just happend i was freaking out. You'll do great on the quitting smoking it's just a matter of changing your routine don't be hanging out with smokers especailly evil smokers who offer you cigs. thats what my expierence has been when i've quit before. And when your ready your ready you just got to give it a go and if you slip up its not the end of the world you just got to try again :)

[bipolarbaby.livejournal.com]

ps- also really watch your stress levels cause a cig is going to be the first thing that you want. so figure out a new subsitute, chewing gum or going for a walk if your at home, something to distract you from what you really want and eventually the craving will pass :)

[lunabee34.livejournal.com]

Yes!

Or exercising. Two birds, one stone, my Bradling.

[lunabee34.livejournal.com]

As an ex smoker, baby, I gotta tell you. You have to get rid of the cigarettes. Go out on the street and give them to a homeless dude if you hate to waste shit, but get rid of them. You wouldn't keep heroin in the house if you were trying to stop using it, you know?