Hyper Little Thoughts

Okay, not really that many. Just seems like it.

Yeah, I'm feeling kind of crappy right now. I shouldn't because I have another interview tomorrow with Primerica.

It's just really hard to stay positive and upbeat when the "Sorry to inform you" emails keep pouring in from everywhere.

Well, interview #1 was a bust.


I'll just be here in the corner, trying not give into the urge to crawl into a hole and die.

Sam just left.

Man, I'm crazy about that boy.

Sam - elaboration on last night's post. Saturday after Kate's party, I went to his place in Andersonville to hang out, and wound up staying all night. Nothing sexual, just more cuddling, touching, talking, sleeping. We woke up...together (yay!)...and talked some more. Realized we were both hungry, so we came down to Boystown for brunch. I picked up the check, and we came back to my place so I could get ready for work, shower, etc. We wound up taking a little nap, and then fooling around a little bit - nothing major, just some more frisky petting;) I drove him home, and went to work. We also figured out the timeline. We're trying to be responsible and not rush into it too much. I've been single 3 years, and him 2 months. He's just a really great guy, and I like him quite a bit. Our 3rd date is on Thursday; we're going for Mexican food and then going to see the Barenaked Lads perform "Seduction," a musical.

Work is still work, with its issues and such. Me and Fernando are kind of getting back to normal after a pretty lengthy discussion. Tony and are still seeming a bit skittish, but I'm pretty sure that'll work itself out - he's bartending tonight, and I'm on the floor. Me and Arben, though - I'm almost positive that'll never be worked out. Which is okay, I guess. Kinda sad, but as Dan kindly pointed out: if he was actually a friend, he would want to resolve it, rather than stretch it out and hold a grudge. Which is true.

No new interviews, no more people calling for recruitments. I'm more than a little bummed about it right now. But also as Cara pointed out: it just means there's something better waiting for me to find it.

Me and Genevieve are doing dinner next Sunday when she gets back in town, and I'm pretty excited about that.

It's nice. It's more than just Sam, but I'm finally starting to feel back on track instead of stuck. Things are working again, and I couldn't be gladder that they are. *knock on wood*

I. LOVE. this album. J.J. burned it for me last night, so yay! I've only wanted it since...oh, 1994.

So, I'm getting dressed now for Kate's party. On the one hand, yay, party! But on the other hand, ugh, North Shore party. There's a live band, a bar, and it's being catered. Maybe I should just enjoy being catered for once instead of the other way around?

But then after the party, I'm meeting up with Sam. *huge grin* He called me yesterday while he was driving into Boston and we talked for like an hour before I had to go to work. Stupid work. *kicks it*

So...I guess we'll see how it goes.

Wish me luck.

Hey look, I can still do it.

For safety, just assume they're all adult-rated.

( The First – Xander’s POV )

( Pet )

( Inside – Xander’s POV )

1. Hand tossed salad with a garlic vinegrette and grated parmasean cheese.
2. Pepper steak marinated in a peppery raspberry glaze
3. Garlic potatoes whipped with a special cinnimon butter
4. A large slice of homemade raisin bread.

All homemade, by me.

And for my next trick, I'm going to turn this giant raddish into a cute edible lamp.

It's no secret - when I fall, I fall hard and I fall fast. It usually bites me in the ass in the end because I always get hurt. So I kinda learned to turn it off and tune it out, for the most part. I still get excited when there's a potential...person in the midst. But I always know in the back of my mind that it probably won't work. (Which so isn't healthy). Plus, I'm young, and I know better ;)

But...

( Psychic )

( Sam )

So there's that. It's been a crazy couple of days, and my head is kind of spinning. I think I might sit down and write for a little while, or try to. Maybe do some laundry. I really want to call Sam, but I think twice in one day is enough. Ugh, and it's only Monday.

Title: Learn to be Lonely Chapter 20/?
Author: chocgood84
Rating: NC-17 for brief violence and sexual content
Pairing: BtVS Spike/Xander
Author’s Note: Yes, I am aware that the timeline is a little screwed up and that Giles didn’t own the Magic Box until after Adam and after Dawn arrived. But in my reality, who’s Dawn? Adam what? Also, a huge spanking thanks to kitty_poker1 for being my official L2BL beta.
Disclaimer: These character’s aren’t mine, never were; I don’t get any profit for this hobby, so don’t sue – Thanks.
Warning: Brief violence, nudity, and hetero and homo sexual content and situations. And some h0t man-luvin.
This can also be found in my LJ Memories, as well as on my website.


Also, I'm having problems with my 'net right now, so those still waiting on comment replies, I'm not ignoring you! I just can't get online for long enough to do anything productive.




( Chapter 20! )