Hyper Little Thoughts

Blast from the past - found this burried in some old music archive cds in a drawer. Oh, Aqua. I heart you.

So I feel like crap. Big pile o' steamin crap. For some reason I'm not sleeping, like at all. And when I come home to take a nap, just like at night, I stare at the ceiling until I finally give up and find something productive DVDs to watch. At this point, it's a lot of energy just to sit up straight. Although I'm definitely hauling ass at work. Which is about the same. Some moments I love my job, most moments I'm on the edge of going OMAX (think..."postal" only with push pins and shredders instead of machine guns). Even if they do offer me the promotion (which...I'm so confused by), it's time to move on. I just don't know how to look any harder than I have been. Save from physically driving around and going into corporate offices and demanding interviews with their HR staff. Ironically - Burger King offered me a position. Again. For the briefest second I considered. I think tomorrow is going to be a resume-bomb day. Any job paying more than I'm making now is getting my resume faxed, emailed, and snailmailed to them.

5 days and 11 hours until Tom comes home.

At least I have new year plans this year - Justin and Cari are adultnapping me up to Bloomington to see Parker's band play. I think I can afford a $3 shot. Might have to find some change though. Being poor sucks.

Boo. Bad mood today. Think I'll go and...sit. Just sit.

Bah. Didn't get much sleep last night. What little sleep I did get was taken up by dreams - not bad ones, just the kind where you wake up even more tired than before you went to bed. I've got a lot on my mind right now. More accurately, I've got a lot of people on my mind, in my thoughts. I think I'll make a post later about it. For now, though, I'm feeling terrible and need to lie down.

There is some excitement, though. I've gotten the heads up the Biff-firing is supposed to commence sometime around the 1st. Words have already been put in for me, and I've got my suck-up face full on (maybe why I'm so tired). There's a pretty good chance that in a couple of weeks my salary will be doubling. Man it would be nice to be able to look debt in the face and laugh. For the moment, I'll keep with the hiding and cowering hoping they don't find me.

Also, Tommy comes home in 8.5 days. Which also means that it'll be one month and counting. So there's a little more excitement. Is it silly to be so optimistic? Who cares...I'm happy.

I've got a lot to post. About how much I miss Tom - but how it's okay because I know he's coming back soon. About how weird it is spending the holiday alone - but how it's okay because I'm strangely happy and do not feel alone. About how great I'm feeling in general.

Instead I'm just going to smile.

Does having 20+ gigs of music mean you have a problem?

I'm just wondering because, you know, it's not like I have an addictive personality or anything. rigggghhhht....

Ever notice that the fastest way of sucking out the christmas spirit is by christmas *shopping*

*cringe*

*cowers in the corner repeating "wal...wal...wal...MART"*

See, it balances out the STOOPID day I had yesterday. This sweet old couple came in to work today and asked me various questions about printers and what not. I was able to talk them down from an $800 monster they didn't need to a $200 photo printer. They were so happy with how I handled them, they bought the replacement plan (that's what I get the commission on, not the actual product), took a business card, and talked me up to both Phil and my DM. I like it when I can actually help someone. That's $600 they can spend on more gifts or themselves or whatever.

Goofed off most of the day at work, got a ton of compliments from Phil about how great I've been while working with Biff, and how I'm doing such a great job. Makes me perty darn happy.

Then, I come home to find a message like that from Tom...It just makes me smile like I haven't in a long long time. I have to admit...I'm loving life right now.

Not cool:
1. Christmas Break. My BF is gone for 15 more days. Ugh.

2. Christmas Muzak. God please make it stop.

3. Biff. Nuff said.

4. Carmelites. Man, I thought Lake Foresters were bad...at least they were sometimes intelligent. These people are just rich white trash. Sometimes it's amusing, though. I give to you an actual conversation with a soccer mom (seriously, could not have been older than 30) from the end of my shift today:
her: "No, I want an mp3 player."
me: "Okay, here's our selection."
her: "But these are not iPods."
me: *blink* "um...you're right?"
her: "but I just said I wanted an mp3 player. you told me you have them."
me: "Um. We do. This is our selection."
her: "Where? I don't see any iPods."
me: "again...you're not wrong. but this is what we have."
her: "so do you have them or not"
me: "we have mp3 players...we do not carry iPod, though"
her: "oh...they're not called iPods?"
me: "an iPod is a make and model of mp3 player made by apple. we do not carry them."
her: "oh. what's the most expensive one you carry, then?"
me: *hands her a $400 piece of plastic crap and a replacement warranty brochure* "this is "best" one we carry."
her: "oh I won't need a replacement program - they're gifts, so if they break, they break. but I'll take three of these iPods."
me: "um...great. i'll meet you at the register with them"
her: "okay. wait. do these play music?"
me: *headdesk*

5. A night o' nightmares. No really. I can remember at least 5 different nightmares from last night. One of which involved a giant squid in my bed that pretty much tore me apart and ate me when I rolled over. Squishy strong tentacles. Naturally I got tangled up in my bedsheets at the same time, so when I woke up screaming, I kept screaming because I thought it was real. Fun times. Incidentally, today I look and feel like CRAP.

Whoohoo! Got sent home an hour and a half hour early because of the snow "storm". It's really not that bad except that Indiana doesn't believe in things like snow plows. It took me an hour to get home, normally only a half hour. But I'm home now. Stocked up on Chicken patties, curly fries, and hot chocolate. Gonna have myself a merry 'ole afternoon and day off tomorrow. Whee!

Popping in Gremlins, Die hard, and some Supernatural. yay!

I miss Tom. Boo.