Changing years

[synapticjava]

Looking back on 2007, I have to shake my head. Man, what a ride. Every year around this time, I take a look back and puzzle through what a difficult year it was. And every year it seems it gets a little harder. This year's no different: it was fudging hard, yo! It seems like every time I stepped forward, I slid back. You know the game: the chutes and ladders that is life. But it also seems like the older I get the more okay I am with that. A lot's happened. I moved from a sprawling city to a minuscule town in the middle of nowhere. I met, loved, and lost people who were, in the end, not what they seemed. My family's grown and shrank - you guys, I have a nephew! Me and my brother patched things up and now I know what it's like to really have one. I was a raging alcoholic for a couple of months. I reached the lowest low and the highest high I've known so far. I've learned more about myself in the last year than in all my years before.

And here I stand staring forward into another year. Not with hope that it will be better; not with dread that it will be worse; but with excitement and anticipation: I can't wait to see what's next! Because for the first time in my life, I'm not only comfortable with who I am and where my life is and is headed - I am happy with it. I have some truly great friends that I love and appreciate very much. I'm in the midst of an exciting new relationship with someone I never thought I'd have a chance with. I've learned to laugh even when all it seems I can do is cry. I'm truly thankful for the gifts I've received. So here's to another year: may it bring many more discoveries, experiences and memories the likes of which we never thought possible. Happy Holidays, everyone.

Comments

[tabaqui]

*hugs you*
I'm so happy for you, that you're looking forward with anticipation! Life is all about what's around the next corner, and be they disappointments or joys, it's all good.
I'm glad you're happy.
:)

Many blessings for you and yours in the new year!

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Thank you lovely, I'm glad I'm happy too:)

Blessings to you and yours as well!

[mwrgana.livejournal.com]

I've kept in irregular touch with your ups and downs over the last couple of years or so - traumas at college, excitment and heartbreak over the "right guy at last" and your early forays into work. I'm delighted you seem so happy and content right now and your entry today just proves what a great guy you are. God, I'm coming over all maternal but I'm so happy for you.

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

awe.

i don't know what to say.

thank you.

*hugs*