Changing years

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Looking back on 2007, I have to shake my head. Man, what a ride. Every year around this time, I take a look back and puzzle through what a difficult year it was. And every year it seems it gets a little harder. This year's no different: it was fudging hard, yo! It seems like every time I stepped forward, I slid back. You know the game: the chutes and ladders that is life. But it also seems like the older I get the more okay I am with that. A lot's happened. I moved from a sprawling city to a minuscule town in the middle of nowhere. I met, loved, and lost people who were, in the end, not what they seemed. My family's grown and shrank - you guys, I have a nephew! Me and my brother patched things up and now I know what it's like to really have one. I was a raging alcoholic for a couple of months. I reached the lowest low and the highest high I've known so far. I've learned more about myself in the last year than in all my years before.

And here I stand staring forward into another year. Not with hope that it will be better; not with dread that it will be worse; but with excitement and anticipation: I can't wait to see what's next! Because for the first time in my life, I'm not only comfortable with who I am and where my life is and is headed - I am happy with it. I have some truly great friends that I love and appreciate very much. I'm in the midst of an exciting new relationship with someone I never thought I'd have a chance with. I've learned to laugh even when all it seems I can do is cry. I'm truly thankful for the gifts I've received. So here's to another year: may it bring many more discoveries, experiences and memories the likes of which we never thought possible. Happy Holidays, everyone.

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Thank you lovely, I'm glad I'm happy too:)

Blessings to you and yours as well!