Probably not of interest to anyone but me, but I just took Chris's pictures I had in frames out. Put them away. It's time.
And honestly, I'm okay. It feels okay now. Feels right, you know?
I was holding on to something that wasn't there, hasn't been there for a long time. I actually felt like if I just believed or hoped it so, he'd come back and we'd be so in love. I was thinking last night - I'm done. He left to follow his own dream, to make himself happy. Now I need to do the same thing. So it's time. It was what it was and what it was is over, and I kind of feel like it now. I can't explain it, but it just feels...nice.
In the meantime, the most important thing in my life right now is school. I've spent too much time worrying and crying and stressing over something that honestly wasn't worth it. So this is me, refocusing.
I feel...good.
And honestly, I'm okay. It feels okay now. Feels right, you know?
I was holding on to something that wasn't there, hasn't been there for a long time. I actually felt like if I just believed or hoped it so, he'd come back and we'd be so in love. I was thinking last night - I'm done. He left to follow his own dream, to make himself happy. Now I need to do the same thing. So it's time. It was what it was and what it was is over, and I kind of feel like it now. I can't explain it, but it just feels...nice.
In the meantime, the most important thing in my life right now is school. I've spent too much time worrying and crying and stressing over something that honestly wasn't worth it. So this is me, refocusing.
I feel...good.
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