Move along - melodramaesque post.

[synapticjava]

Probably not of interest to anyone but me, but I just took Chris's pictures I had in frames out. Put them away. It's time.

And honestly, I'm okay. It feels okay now. Feels right, you know?

I was holding on to something that wasn't there, hasn't been there for a long time. I actually felt like if I just believed or hoped it so, he'd come back and we'd be so in love. I was thinking last night - I'm done. He left to follow his own dream, to make himself happy. Now I need to do the same thing. So it's time. It was what it was and what it was is over, and I kind of feel like it now. I can't explain it, but it just feels...nice.

In the meantime, the most important thing in my life right now is school. I've spent too much time worrying and crying and stressing over something that honestly wasn't worth it. So this is me, refocusing.

I feel...good.

Comments

[trepkos.livejournal.com]

"melodramaesque"

I see you've got that word inventing virus!

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Oh no! I must use my "stick-to-it-iveness" and find a cure!

[trepkos.livejournal.com]

Heh!

[rivulet027.livejournal.com]

calm is good, nice is good. That's an important and sometimes hard to reach step so good for you. :)

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Heh. Thanks:)

[lunabee34.livejournal.com]

Moving on is good. It's really hard to stop holding onto things; I have particular problem with grudges *g*. I want those wankers to diediedie! *g*

Anyway, back to your scenario. I'm really proud of you. If Chris (keep in mind I have no clue who this guy is; I'm assuming this all happened before my lj days) has moved on, you should too.

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Yeah, easy to say that Chris is waaaaayyyy before you LJ days. heh.

[adikala.livejournal.com]

now, to stick my nose into your personal business, where it really doesnt belong... im glad youve done that. thats ALWAYS a good thing to do. but only when youre really ready for it. (and now here for the personalisation that almost, but not really makes it okay for me to comment) i found out the VERYVERY hard way that trying to move on before youre ready is not at all healthy and just prolongs the process in the worst possible way. now onto other things...

if youve no problems with it, ill be adding you. found your journal through nightsashke and ive found everything i have read to be enjoyable. but i should warn you that sometimes i comment. a lot. *blush* oh yea. so if youd prefer i not, please say so. and thanks! :D

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Oh no, don't worry, it's cool:)

[adikala.livejournal.com]

excellent :D