Such a fucking loser.

[synapticjava]

So tonight I started getting depressed, so I turned to the age-old tradition of shopping. Bout a whole new outfit - two new pin stripe button ups, new pair of jeans and a nice brown sweater, a new CD and White Christmas. Tomorrow, the jeans and sweater are going back - way too expensive and they make me look even fatter.

Anyway, needless to say the mood has not lifted. I am so fucking tired, but I don't feel like crawling in bed and tossing and turning for six hours trying to fall asleep again, and I really don't want to take any sleeping pills. Maybe I'll go and work on the fic I'm writing. BTW for those that care, WB should be out soon.

God I fucking hate this. I'm not good at anything and nothing goes the way I want it to. Why can't I be done with school now, be out on my own and leave all this fucking shit behind me. Fuck, sometimes I wish I could just start over. There's a damn reset button on everything else.

Comments

[karenbear.livejournal.com]

I sorry you're feeling so down, sweetheart. *hugs you* And I have to most strenuously disagree - you are not even close to being a loser!! You are a wonderful, kind, funny, smart guy, who I love, and love having as a friend. *hugs you again*

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Thanks. I'm better today. Last night just wasn't a good night at all. *huge hugs*

Thanks babe.