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Alright. I'm going to put this behind a cut for the benefit of all my other LJ Friends. But I really want all of the Barat people to read it. In fact, I think it would be better for everyone if they did, that way there's no misunderstandings. And no problems in the future.
First and foremost, I'm not posting this to piss a bunch of people off. That's not the purpose of me posting anything. However, I feel like I've been backed into a corner, and I hope after this you can understand why and respect that.
My livejournal is my venting place. It is where I post my thoughts, feelings, and ideas. I do this here because (before) I could do it annonymously. I have lots of LJ friends that I've never met and probably will never meet. That only serves to boost my confidence. When I post something on LJ I know that people aren't going to freak out at me for saying something they don't like. LJ has been very theraputic in that sense because in real life I am bound by descrepencies, shyness, and the tendency to be a pushover. LJ was my last place of freedom. On here I can be the person I am and want to be without worrying what people with think of me. I can post about the people in my life without worrying about whether they will find out what I think of them or how I feel about them or their goings-on at that moment. This is one reason I choose not to have my journal friend's only. I think it defeats the purpose, at least for me. That's not to say that I don't occaisionally lock a post for whatever reason. But for the most part, I believe in, at least here, just letting it all hang out. And there is nothing wrong with that.
I think that I should have the right to speak freely. Granted, I don't feel like I can outside of this screen and this keyboard. That's why LJ is truly important to me. It is the one place in the world where I can be myself without being attacked by people who do not understand me and do not take in everything I have to offer. And sure enough, I can see it starting to happen.
The fact that I like most of you individually and consider a lot of you friends doesn't mean that there aren't times where I can't stand to be around you or I am upset with you. I am a person with feelings, and I reserve the right to be irrational and sporadic in my thoughts and feelings just like anyone else. And this is where the problem comes in.
When I found out a bunch of Barat people were being converted to LJ, though for a good reason, I could forsee this happening. I once again, in the only place I am comfortable to do so, feel as if I cannot be myself or speak my mind. That is incredibly unfair to and difficult for me. Therefore, I have made the decision to speak my mind, regardless of whether or not the people I am speaking of are reading this. My LJ will be as it always has been - my sounding board. I will post my thoughts and feelings on everything, as I have always done. I think I deserve this.
If you are going to be reading my journal, and friend it and everything, you need to understand this. You need to know that here I am myself. These are my private and personal thoughts that I have posted publicly for complete and total strangers to gawk at. When I created my livejournal, that was the purpose and up until the last couple weeks, always has been. And so now I will again go back to that. Here's where you come in. If there is something that you read or see that you do not like - good for you. Understand that it is how I am feeling, and respect that. Do not comment on things you find offensive because you probably don't entirely understand it. And even if you do, they are my thoughts and feelings and I can think and feel what I want, offensive or not.
Please keep this in mind when you are reading this journal. I really think that if you have taken offense to this you should unfriend me now. And keep it in mind for future reference. Thank you.
First and foremost, I'm not posting this to piss a bunch of people off. That's not the purpose of me posting anything. However, I feel like I've been backed into a corner, and I hope after this you can understand why and respect that.
My livejournal is my venting place. It is where I post my thoughts, feelings, and ideas. I do this here because (before) I could do it annonymously. I have lots of LJ friends that I've never met and probably will never meet. That only serves to boost my confidence. When I post something on LJ I know that people aren't going to freak out at me for saying something they don't like. LJ has been very theraputic in that sense because in real life I am bound by descrepencies, shyness, and the tendency to be a pushover. LJ was my last place of freedom. On here I can be the person I am and want to be without worrying what people with think of me. I can post about the people in my life without worrying about whether they will find out what I think of them or how I feel about them or their goings-on at that moment. This is one reason I choose not to have my journal friend's only. I think it defeats the purpose, at least for me. That's not to say that I don't occaisionally lock a post for whatever reason. But for the most part, I believe in, at least here, just letting it all hang out. And there is nothing wrong with that.
I think that I should have the right to speak freely. Granted, I don't feel like I can outside of this screen and this keyboard. That's why LJ is truly important to me. It is the one place in the world where I can be myself without being attacked by people who do not understand me and do not take in everything I have to offer. And sure enough, I can see it starting to happen.
The fact that I like most of you individually and consider a lot of you friends doesn't mean that there aren't times where I can't stand to be around you or I am upset with you. I am a person with feelings, and I reserve the right to be irrational and sporadic in my thoughts and feelings just like anyone else. And this is where the problem comes in.
When I found out a bunch of Barat people were being converted to LJ, though for a good reason, I could forsee this happening. I once again, in the only place I am comfortable to do so, feel as if I cannot be myself or speak my mind. That is incredibly unfair to and difficult for me. Therefore, I have made the decision to speak my mind, regardless of whether or not the people I am speaking of are reading this. My LJ will be as it always has been - my sounding board. I will post my thoughts and feelings on everything, as I have always done. I think I deserve this.
If you are going to be reading my journal, and friend it and everything, you need to understand this. You need to know that here I am myself. These are my private and personal thoughts that I have posted publicly for complete and total strangers to gawk at. When I created my livejournal, that was the purpose and up until the last couple weeks, always has been. And so now I will again go back to that. Here's where you come in. If there is something that you read or see that you do not like - good for you. Understand that it is how I am feeling, and respect that. Do not comment on things you find offensive because you probably don't entirely understand it. And even if you do, they are my thoughts and feelings and I can think and feel what I want, offensive or not.
Please keep this in mind when you are reading this journal. I really think that if you have taken offense to this you should unfriend me now. And keep it in mind for future reference. Thank you.
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