Yeah, so...

[synapticjava]

that last post being all happy? Scratch that. I'm pretty pissed right now. Chris is here. Chris was here all day from what I heard. Did I get a phone call? Did anyone tell me? Did anyone even *email* me and let me know? No, of course not. Course, I'm almost positive the people in question who should have said something didn't want to because it might "make me wierd or upset". I think I should be the one to judge that, don't you? This is a person that I loved, someone who was my life for a long time. And no one even cares to tell me that he is in town or that he was visiting Barat. I guess that's what a lot of my "friends" think. Oh well, fuck them. I know who matters to me. I know who my real friends are. Fuck them and fuck that. And for that matter, fuck Chris for not even thinking about me. Really makes me rethink what the whole relationship was about, ya know?

Comments

[cryptic-design.livejournal.com]

Wow... thats really fucked up that no one said anything and that he didn't even let you know that he was in town.

*hugs you and shares Chocalate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream with Wonder Boy*

thanks

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Yur sweet. Thanks for caring *hug*

[xfuckitx.livejournal.com]

umm i love your live journal n i'm sorry :(

heh

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

thanks.

Re: heh

[xfuckitx.livejournal.com]

you're welcome!!

[amarantabuendia.livejournal.com]

sorry, if i'd had known, i would have said something.

Thanks

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

That actually means a lot.

[wildflowerfever.livejournal.com]

Blah. *Hugs*

Thanks

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

It's just really shitty.

[bloodroses27.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry no one told you. Jen had mentioned once that he would be coming up, but I didn't know when...or that they wouldn't tell you.

Yeah

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

I knew that he was supposed to be here sometime this month, but I didn't ever find out when. It's so shitty.

[toyish.livejournal.com]

You know what chill out. It is not my job to tell you when Chris is here if he mattered so much to you call him once an a while and talk to him then maybe he would have come seen you or called you but what reason does he have to if you do not even make it known to him that you still want to hear from him. I am you friend and yes I do care very much about you but do not try to make me feel bad, and I did tell you that he was coming sometime in April and I did not know until he was coming until he was already on his way.

Know what?

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

He never told me how I could get ahold of him. It's a two-way thing. No, it's not your job to tell me. But I would think that a "friend" would at least think about it. Don't put this on me. You knew I wanted to see him. I'm not trying to make you feel bad, but I do have to question motives, and not just yours. And don't tell me to chill out. You don't have that right anymore.

[toyish.livejournal.com]

Okay I am sorry that my last reply sounded so mean, I know that it has been really hard on you not having Chris and how much he meant to you. If it makes you feel better I did tell him to call you when he got here. I thought he had.

Thanks

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Sorry if the post I just commented was bitchy. I'm just really really upset right now. I think if you read my lst post, you'll understand why. I'm not so upset with you as I am with him.