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Dad update, and life, etc.

My dad's doing a lot better. He's been moved from Iowa City back to the Quad Cities and placed in a rehabilitation center where he'll be doing some pretty extensive physical therapy. The doctors are pretty optimistic, which I guess is a good thing. He's in a lot of pain since they jossled him around quite a bit on the ride, but mom said he's quite a bit happier where he is. And of course the family's happy because now they can all go up and bug him. Thank you all for your nice thoughts and prayers, and comments.

In other life, etc. news, today was day 3 of work at Home Depot. They threw me on the floor today and left me alone behind the services counter for about an hour. In which, I mixed up three Will-Calls and deliveries, deleted a customer account, and screwed up the register. The good thing, though, is that my supervisor just laughed and walked me through fixing it all. She was pretty nice about it, and so were the customers. Of course, my bright orange button that screams "HI, I'M IN TRAINING!" button kind of helped that along.

*headdesk*

Since I've sworn off dating, men, and going "out" pretty much altogether (yeah...that's a whole nother topic), I decided that since I have tomorrow off, I spent pretty much all of next week's food & misc. budget on a cheap bottle of wine, provisions for smores and apple cider. I'm having a feel-good-movie-mania. On the list: Aladdin, Beauty and the Beast, Mickey's Christmas Carol, Mannequin, Mean Girls, Ghoulies, and Simply Irresistable. If I don't blow up like a Macy's float, I should be an almost-happy camper by tomorrow night. this is pretty much just to distract me from...everything.

Anyway, I hope everyone is well.

back in chi-town

for those that don't know, I had to rush to iowa city university hospital on thursday. my dad was taken there after the trench he was digging for work caved in on him. he was burried for about 7 minutes until my brother, who was working with him, found him and dug out his head so he could breathe. he swallowed a lot of dirt, and I guess he was "out" for a few minutes from lack of oxegyn. (further information is here about it.

he's okay(ish). he's got a broken pelvis and a few other injuries. we're waiting on further x-rays and ct-scans to see if he's going to need surgery. they said there's a possibility of brain damage from not having oxygen, which scares me. naturally, my mom's a wreck, but she's trying to stay strong for him and for us. i just hope that she can cope with it all. when the doctor gave us the news that he might not be able to walk without assistance again, she passed out. i've never seen that happen before. i mean, my mom's the strongest woman in the world.

so, I'm exhausted. and I feel kinda useless because there's nothing I can do to help. i'm just going kinda crazy. i mean, it's my dad, you know? I'm just so thankful brian was there.

Ever feel like your skin is peeling off and running away?

Because I do. Right now. And I can't stop fidgeting. Apparently someone's been putting CRACK in my cigarettes.

I'm actually trying to quit smoking right now. I'm on day two. That's the longest I've gone without a cigarette in...God, years.

Yeah, so I'm a little crazy right now.

On the plus side, my apartment has never been cleaner.

Water!

You know, you never realize the things you take for granted.

My building's been without water for 2 1/2 days. It just came on, and I don't think I've ever heard a better sound in the world than the running water.

WATER!

Update

I am still alive.

I god a job. The Home Depot one. Full time customer service. It's better than nothing, and I figured I'll be making at least as much as I was at the bar, probably more. I haven't started yet; they're waiting on my drug test results. So sometime this week.

Everything else is...eh, pretty glum.

Current Music: Elton John - The Bitch is Back

wha - huh? say what?

Okay, somehow somone passed my resume along to a sales recruiter. He called yesterday, went over my resume. Called me back today with a prospective match - I have an interview with United Shipping next week for an outside sales position. The base salary's not that great, but after commission, the average 1st year earnings are...um, just wow. If I got it, and I made the median, I'd be able to pay off my student loans in under 5 years. Not to mention get out of debt. Also, expense account.

In the meantime, I have an interview with Home Depot this afternoon. Yeah, that's right. My only problem - how do you dress for an interview at Home Depot? I mean, I think the standard shirt/tie combo isn't quite right there.

Also, I haven't smoked a cigarette since about 10pm last night. It's now almost noon. I'm going CRAZY. I'm two seconds away from breaking down and going to buy some.

Birthday!

Happy birthday, kitty!

I love you bunches, sweetheart. Hope your day is the bestest!

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hijinks

It's sacralicious!

Warning: Probably not recommended reading for those that are really god-fearing religious:

We're just wrong.

( AIM Conversation with wilde_moon. Topic: The Good Book Grill )

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learn to be lonely

Learn to be Lonely Chapter 22 (Another update!)

Title: Learn to be Lonely Chapter 22/?
Author:

chocgood84
Rating: NC-17 for brief violence and sexual content
Pairing: BtVS Spike/Xander
Author’s Note: Yes, I am aware that the timeline is a little screwed up and that Giles didn’t own the Magic Box until after Adam and after Dawn arrived. But in my reality, who’s Dawn? Adam what? Also, a huge spanking thanks to

kitty_poker1 for being my official L2BL beta.
Disclaimer: These character’s aren’t mine, never were; I don’t get any profit for this hobby, so don’t sue – Thanks.
Warning: Brief violence, nudity, and hetero and homo sexual content and situations. And some h0t man-luvin.
This can also be found in my LJ Memories, as well as on my website.

( Chapter 22 )

Problem

Okay, that's two nights in a row.

eesh.

now I'm starting to think something's wrong.

Im my humble opinion...

Unicru can go to hell. Anyone that's ever had to fill out an application online using them knows what I'm talking about. Imagine...I've been sitting her for 5 hours now using it, and I've only finished 4 applications.

GRRRR.

Also - new userpic!

Current Music: Carpenters - Rainy Days And Mondays

rainy days and mondays pick me up:)

It's cold and rainy here in ChiTown today.

And I love it. It kinda just fits right now. I had some temporary releif last night, yeah *blush* *whistles innocently*, but then I was woken up by bill people this morning. *sigh*

So I have two choices. I can either put on a pot of coffee, wake up, take a shower, get dressed, and go out and look for a job.

Or, I can continue being a slacker and go back to bed.

Was I bad?

Oh yeah, I was totally bad. I wound up meeting matt for a drink and some smokes at LJ's, where we met someone who introduced me to John. John is just about the sexiest creature in the whole world.

*ahem*I wound up going home with John and f**king the crap out of him. We have a date tomorrow night after he gets off work. *cough cough*

Mmm.

I did things tonight that would make even...uml...me, blush. Cool.

(no subject)

Date with Matt turned out to be just having a drink. 10 minutes into it, we're friends now. lol.

But I have another date in half an hour with Marshall, who's been trying to get me to go out with him for months. I finally caved, so we're meeting for coffee at 4. No expectations, no regrets.

In the meantime, Sam called last night while I was out with Matt and asked what I was doing, if I wanted to "hang out." I told him I was kinda busy. I'm really not trying to play any games, but he can't have his cake and eat it too. If he wants to date me, then he needs to, um, date me. I'm not one of those "wait forever" kind of people anymore.

Hmm

Matt (someone new) just called to ask me out.

Think I'll go grab a drink with him. *hmph*

Current Music: The Cure - Pictures of You

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learn to be lonely

Learn to be Lonely Chapter 21 Update!

Title: Learn to be Lonely Chapter 21/?
Author:

( Chapter 21 )

Current Mood: crappy
Current Music: Judy Collins - Send In The Clowns

Stupid Brain

I'm awake.

Kept having nightmares. Like, Texas Chainsaw Massacre (the new one) type nightmares.

Life, and things.

Had the interview; he offered me a position. I'm not going to take it, though. No benefits, no base salary, and I would have to spend $400 to get licsenced in Illinois to sell Insurance. So, while I feel better about *someone* taking an interest, I feel shitty because - is this the best I can do?

My credit card company called - someone's got my account number and is using it. They didn't catch it until two purchases were rang at the same time - me, in Chicago, and this other person, in California, within minutes of each other. So now I have to go through and fix it all. Also, my bank called - "should we clear this check? there won't be much left after it goes through."

And, I've decided to break it off with Sam. I called him this afternoon to ask him about the date last night, and he said he 'forgot.' So I asked if wanted to do something this weekend, and with no other explaination, he said 'I'm busy.' Probably overreacting here, but that doesn't really fly with me. I dated one guy for 9 months that never had time to actually spend with me, I'm damn well not doing it again.

It's only 6pm, but I'm so drained. I think I'm going to just go to bed. Maybe I'll wake up when the economy's better.

P.S. my mom called to tell me that my diploma finally arrived. I told her to burn it; it's obviously not doing me any good.

Current Music: John Jones - Feel No Pain

Times, they are desperate

As per example, I have an interview tomorrow with AFLAC tomorrow morning, for a job - get this - selling insurance. *cringe* The only thing worse is the other interview I have, tomorrow afternoon, for a job...*gag* managing a restaurant.

Got two more rejections this afternoon.

Also, Sam is MIA. He didn't show for our date tonight, didn't call, and isn't answering. I'd say that's pretty much strike two. Especially considering it was our 4th date in three weeks. *is not pleased*

General Thank You

I've been going through all the comments you guys have made over this summer (I know I've been terrible about responding to...um... everyone), and I just wanted to shout out a huge THANK YOU to all of my f-list. It's definetely been a pretty high/low few months, and you all have been so supportive and kind to me, even at my craziest.

Anyway, thank you to all of you guys.

*big F-list hug*

It means a lot to me.