*bawls* 12/30/07

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Baby, you must not know how you make me feel. Everytime I hear your voice, my day gets just that much better. Everytime I see you smile it's like I'm smiling too. Everytime you say I love you to me, I forget about everything going on, and for that moment, it's just you and me-nothing else exists, just us-together. I don't think you're clingy, I don't think you're needy-you make me feel more loved than I have ever felt before, and I hope that never changes. I will do whatever it takes to keep you in my life, and though we will have our trials and struggles like all do, I look forward to the next chance I have to lay next to you and hold you in my arms. I miss you so much, I was a drunken mess tonight... you should have been there... lol... I kind of wish we had a camera... I sang drunk karaoke... or was that (skare)aoke.... hahaha. I don't know how to tell you how much I love you besides saying it and just spilling out my feelings. The only ones that I truly trust are you, Kate, and God. I have faith that we will make it. anyways... I keep losing wireless signal so I had best take the hint and pass out already... lol. Don't you ever forget how much I love you. I'll be there soon to hold on to you and we can be together physically for the first time in too long. I miss you so much, and I hope to one day be able to spend the rest of my life with you Brad. I love the way our names go together... Brad and Tom. it's like perfect, a match made in heaven. I love you so much... and to think that I almost didn't want to come to school down there... I'm so glad that I made that decision though because if I hadn't, I wouldn't have met you. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I don't want you to ever go away.

As I lay here alone in my bed once again, I can't help but wonder... are you thinking about me? are you remembering the time we have spent together? Are you sleeping soundly without me there? I find it hard to sleep or even concentrate without you here. It's like nothing even matters when I think of you. Nothing matters, not my family, not my friends, nothing that I own, I'm centered on you and the only thing I want to change is the fact that I am away right now. I know that you worry about me. I know that you constantly wonder if I will ever find someone else. The truth is, I don't want to find anyone else. I just want to wake up and find that you are next to me again. I want to be able to hold you in my arms again and not worry about tomorrow and the struggles and toils it will bring us. anyways...I need to get to sleep... I am so tired.... and it doesn't help that I had six long islands, two apple martini's, and three shots of bacardi... LOL. I guess I thought that if I drank more that I would magically open my eyes and find myself there with you... I know... it sounds crazy, right? OMG I'm writing a novel...

I love you sweetheart!!! Goodnight, Good morning, and Good day!

Counting down the hours until I wake up in your arms again.

Tom

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That is sssoooo romantic:) Soooo sweeeet:) I'm green:)

Go glomp:) err and other things.Sigh I love a good romance and especially if it's real:)