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It's that time of year that this song goes on repeat pretty much until the new year.
While it's been a good visit, and a great holiday, I will definetly be glad to be back in Indy. I can feel the holiday blues creeping in here. Today's immediate thanksgiving feast was rather bittersweet. I'm so glad and proud of my brother - my whole family, actually - but there was something not right, to me. I'm sitting there, not at the table anymore because Brian's wife is here now. My grandparents, my parents, and now my brother and his wife and their kids. I don't know why, it was just kind of a suckerpunch to me. It's like I'm not apart of the family anymore. On a more "me me me" note, not a single person has asked me while I've been here how things are with me; what's my life like? Not that I think I can tell them the truth, but I guess it would nice to be asked. Oh well - you can't make a lepeord change its spots.
Anyway, I'm bound and determined to keep up the positivsm I've been living with, so it'll be good to get back to a little normalcy. My flight's confirmed, and this time tomorrow night I'll be back in IN and cursing my job. It's just been such a rough year.
While it's been a good visit, and a great holiday, I will definetly be glad to be back in Indy. I can feel the holiday blues creeping in here. Today's immediate thanksgiving feast was rather bittersweet. I'm so glad and proud of my brother - my whole family, actually - but there was something not right, to me. I'm sitting there, not at the table anymore because Brian's wife is here now. My grandparents, my parents, and now my brother and his wife and their kids. I don't know why, it was just kind of a suckerpunch to me. It's like I'm not apart of the family anymore. On a more "me me me" note, not a single person has asked me while I've been here how things are with me; what's my life like? Not that I think I can tell them the truth, but I guess it would nice to be asked. Oh well - you can't make a lepeord change its spots.
Anyway, I'm bound and determined to keep up the positivsm I've been living with, so it'll be good to get back to a little normalcy. My flight's confirmed, and this time tomorrow night I'll be back in IN and cursing my job. It's just been such a rough year.