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I'm in much better spirits today. In a weird way, I think last night has a lot to do with it. It really helps knowing I was wanted, that someone found me desirable and interesting. I've not really felt that way since Frank. Not that I'm going back to my old tricks, but for the first time in a LONG time, I felt that. Attractive.
I'm not ready to deal with the mom situation. I just, can't. Not right now. I have this irrational idea that if I avoid all contact with home, that it's not happening. That if I don't hear it, about it, it just doesn't exist. In no way is this healthy, I know that. But just for a little while. I mean...it's my mom.
Now I'm going to spend the afternoon watching SPN, try writing, and getting caught up on some much needed sleep.
I leave you with this: an SPN angst!vid I found set to my new favorite song by my new favorite band.
I'm not ready to deal with the mom situation. I just, can't. Not right now. I have this irrational idea that if I avoid all contact with home, that it's not happening. That if I don't hear it, about it, it just doesn't exist. In no way is this healthy, I know that. But just for a little while. I mean...it's my mom.
Now I'm going to spend the afternoon watching SPN, try writing, and getting caught up on some much needed sleep.
I leave you with this: an SPN angst!vid I found set to my new favorite song by my new favorite band.