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I wrote this, more for myself and about myself than for anything or anyone else. I've realized I've been wallowing. I can't let myself fall into that again. I need to move on, from everything. I need to just let go. And so, this:
1. I am good person. Despite my flaws – my inability to truly grasp reality from time to time, my unwillingness to see anything other than what I want to see, my endless naiveté and insecurities, and so many other things that in the end only make me, me – I am generally a good person. I deserve happiness. I deserve love, even if it is only from and for me.
2. I will no longer allow anyone to hurt me. You may not use me. You may not mistreat me. You may not make me feel anything less than human. When I say no, I mean it. When I say I love you, know that I truly have love for you; it is not a word or emotion I use lightly. Don’t abuse that; don’t abuse me.
3. I do not and will not regret anything that I have done. My decisions are mine and mine alone. I make them using the best information and experience I have available to me at that point in time. I may not make the “right” decision; I may not even be happy about making it after the fact, but understand that I truly believe each choice we make shapes our next choice – each moment influences the next. And though there are times when I am not happy with myself or with my life, I would not trade it for anything in this world or any other. If I could go back and change even one thing, I would no longer be who I am, and that is not a sacrifice I am willing to make.
4. I belong to me; my life is my own. No longer will I allow myself to be controlled by others; no longer will I accept anything less than what I want. No one can take anything from me unless I allow them to, and I will not allow them to.
5. I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t even really know who I am, who I want to be. But isn’t that the point? Isn’t this supposed to be some great mystery, some massive learning experience? Someday I’ll get there; someday I’ll know. But I can’t force it, I cannot know everything there is to know – and do I really want to? I have many questions, many things I want to learn and experience. And I won’t let myself fall short of that.
6. It has been my experiences that the worst things in life can bring about the most positive changes, can change one person’s entire world. The key, I believe, is not allowing the bad past to control the present. Though it created it, it does not control it. The present is all I have. I cannot and will not change the past; I cannot force the future. I need to be happy in the moment as it presents itself. I hope that one day I can do this.
Finally: Let go. Let life happen. Above all else, I deserve this much.
1. I am good person. Despite my flaws – my inability to truly grasp reality from time to time, my unwillingness to see anything other than what I want to see, my endless naiveté and insecurities, and so many other things that in the end only make me, me – I am generally a good person. I deserve happiness. I deserve love, even if it is only from and for me.
2. I will no longer allow anyone to hurt me. You may not use me. You may not mistreat me. You may not make me feel anything less than human. When I say no, I mean it. When I say I love you, know that I truly have love for you; it is not a word or emotion I use lightly. Don’t abuse that; don’t abuse me.
3. I do not and will not regret anything that I have done. My decisions are mine and mine alone. I make them using the best information and experience I have available to me at that point in time. I may not make the “right” decision; I may not even be happy about making it after the fact, but understand that I truly believe each choice we make shapes our next choice – each moment influences the next. And though there are times when I am not happy with myself or with my life, I would not trade it for anything in this world or any other. If I could go back and change even one thing, I would no longer be who I am, and that is not a sacrifice I am willing to make.
4. I belong to me; my life is my own. No longer will I allow myself to be controlled by others; no longer will I accept anything less than what I want. No one can take anything from me unless I allow them to, and I will not allow them to.
5. I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t even really know who I am, who I want to be. But isn’t that the point? Isn’t this supposed to be some great mystery, some massive learning experience? Someday I’ll get there; someday I’ll know. But I can’t force it, I cannot know everything there is to know – and do I really want to? I have many questions, many things I want to learn and experience. And I won’t let myself fall short of that.
6. It has been my experiences that the worst things in life can bring about the most positive changes, can change one person’s entire world. The key, I believe, is not allowing the bad past to control the present. Though it created it, it does not control it. The present is all I have. I cannot and will not change the past; I cannot force the future. I need to be happy in the moment as it presents itself. I hope that one day I can do this.
Finally: Let go. Let life happen. Above all else, I deserve this much.
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And yes.
*hugs*
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