Somedays being a growed-up sucks

[synapticjava]

Hasn't been the best day. Work was the worst it's been here, and I was so frustrated and down, I stopped at Target on the way home to buy a little happy. Walking around, I found tons of stuff I liked, even a few things I wanted - Supernatural S1 for $20. But everytime I picked up something, I'd think of a bill I need to pay. I think for only the second time in my whole life, I walked out of Target emptyhanded and feeling even worse than when I went in. I decided I wanted to rent a couple movies, but needed to stop at home first because I remembered I had a 2 for 1 coupon. Is this what my life is now?

It's raining, and cool outside, and I've got the windows open. I watched Bridge to Terebithia (I bawled like baby for a good 10 minutes - they did a really good job on it), Attic Expeditions (uh...WTF?), and now I'm getting ready to watch The Fountain. Been dozing on and off all afternoon on the couch. I called my dad while I was making dinner - he had surgery a couple days ago to replace his knee, he's doing fine. That was a bad move. I still haven't been able to tell them about Frank and I - every time we call, I dodge questions or change the subject. I'm just not ready to tell them yet - they really like him and I feel totally foolish for taking him home. I feel really bad lying, but I just can't do it right now.

Today...not so good. I'm sure tomorrow will be better.

Comments

[wilde-moon.livejournal.com]

Guess I'll have to rent Terebithia. Attic Expeditions is a major WTF movie, but so worth it for crazy!Seth Green! *sigh* I want to watch crazy!Seth again.

[tabaqui]

Yeah, it kind of does, but...there it is.

Don't worry about telling your folks. I know it bothers you to *not* tell them, but...let it settle, first.

And you took him home because it made you happy - that's okay. Don't beat yourself up over it, okay?
*hugs*

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Nope, no more beating. *hugs*

[trepkos.livejournal.com]

Somedays being a growed-up sucks.

Yes, it does.