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Spent the day in Lafayette with Chelle and the kids. We went to CiCi's pizza (pizza buffet. mmmmm), then took Evan to this really cool park they have, and went for a walk in the mall. Got me some sun and fun with the kids. Flirted with by the cookie guy at the mall. Mistaken for the kids' father. All in all, not a bad way to spend my day off.
I decided it was time to talk to Frank about the way things have around here the last week, and pretty much let him know exactly how I felt. We had a pretty long talk - awkward at times, frustrating at others, and all together a new experience for me. It was really difficult to tell him all of the things I needed to - how I've been feeling about our relationship and feeling lik I was used, how alone I've been feeling, and how angry the whole situation has been making me. But I did it. We fought for a bit, and things got kinda nasty and harsh. But we talked it out. The roomate thing should get easier. I don't know that the friend part will - that's one of the things we talked a lot about (he says I make him uncomfortable sometimes with effeminate I can be). We're friends, but in the sense that we know eachother and don't dislike each other. But he has doubts we can ever be close friends, which gives me doubts about wanting to be close.
Either way, I have a definite answer to where I stand and I feel like I'm in a more solid place. Things are getting better, feeling better. Kinda nice to start back on the upward swing.
I decided it was time to talk to Frank about the way things have around here the last week, and pretty much let him know exactly how I felt. We had a pretty long talk - awkward at times, frustrating at others, and all together a new experience for me. It was really difficult to tell him all of the things I needed to - how I've been feeling about our relationship and feeling lik I was used, how alone I've been feeling, and how angry the whole situation has been making me. But I did it. We fought for a bit, and things got kinda nasty and harsh. But we talked it out. The roomate thing should get easier. I don't know that the friend part will - that's one of the things we talked a lot about (he says I make him uncomfortable sometimes with effeminate I can be). We're friends, but in the sense that we know eachother and don't dislike each other. But he has doubts we can ever be close friends, which gives me doubts about wanting to be close.
Either way, I have a definite answer to where I stand and I feel like I'm in a more solid place. Things are getting better, feeling better. Kinda nice to start back on the upward swing.
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And it's good you talked. Talking is always good, even if it's hard.
*hugs*
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...buh? You're perhaps the least effeminate person I know. Even then, that's a weird thing to make someone uncomfortable. I mean, unless you're jumping on chairs and shrieking every time you see a bug...that sounds like the kind of thing a person would say when what he mainly wants to do is hurt your feelings. I don't like it when people describe another person's unique batch of traits as some fill-in-the-blank catch-all: "You're just being hysterical!" "It makes me uncomfortable when you act effeminate!" "Oh, you need to cheer up; you're just so negative," &c. It's so reductive and dismissive and over-simplified. Anyway. Sounds like today was lots of fun; I'm very glad for that!
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