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Sun's coming up; Joe just left, and I'm exhausted.
Joe's a guy I met a few days ago. He's a teacher who is here to volunteer and compete in the gay games. He asked for my number, I gave it to him. Last night I was supposed to have a date with Jeff, who called and rescheduled. A couple hours later, Joe called and asked me to meet him for a drink at Cocktail. So I threw on a polo and met him.
We got there at 1am, last call was at 2am, and we came back to my place to "hang out." 10 minutes later we were rolling around butt naked. It was mostly innocent touching and kissing, not full on sex, because I haven't done that for about 5 months now (my choice). So, it was back to the basics. We finished after almost a full hour of what most people consider foreplay.
Then we dozed on and off for quite a while, before we both started getting frisky again.
And then it happened, I actually became comfortable enough with him that I let him go for it. I swear, it was like being broken in all over again. But it was also nicer than I remember it ever being. He knew exactly what to do, say, how to move. He was really gentle and patient, and it's the first time I ever actually enjoyed it. I've always done it before because it's a role I felt like I had to play. Which is why I stopped these past few months. But now, damn. I mean, really. Heaven is a place on earth.
So we finished, showered, and he got dressed to go - he has to volunteer in a couple of hours. On his way out, he kissed me, hugged me, and told me that I'm amazing and so sexy.
I can't even explain how great this makes me feel. All of my issues and angst just slid away for a few hours, and I was able to relax and enjoy the moment. Granted, I'm still in afterglow, but I'm deleriously happy right now. The past few days I've been in a 100% better mood, but now I'm even beyond that. Got some of my confidence back.
I'm not crazy; he's leaving in a week. We have plans to see each other a couple more times in the coming week, but after he goes, he's gone. So there's not really a danger of misplaced feelings. But there's no reason we can't be friends who like to get together.
And it also opens the door to other things that I've closed off for a while.
And now to go to bed because I have to work tonight, and I am exhausted.
Joe's a guy I met a few days ago. He's a teacher who is here to volunteer and compete in the gay games. He asked for my number, I gave it to him. Last night I was supposed to have a date with Jeff, who called and rescheduled. A couple hours later, Joe called and asked me to meet him for a drink at Cocktail. So I threw on a polo and met him.
We got there at 1am, last call was at 2am, and we came back to my place to "hang out." 10 minutes later we were rolling around butt naked. It was mostly innocent touching and kissing, not full on sex, because I haven't done that for about 5 months now (my choice). So, it was back to the basics. We finished after almost a full hour of what most people consider foreplay.
Then we dozed on and off for quite a while, before we both started getting frisky again.
And then it happened, I actually became comfortable enough with him that I let him go for it. I swear, it was like being broken in all over again. But it was also nicer than I remember it ever being. He knew exactly what to do, say, how to move. He was really gentle and patient, and it's the first time I ever actually enjoyed it. I've always done it before because it's a role I felt like I had to play. Which is why I stopped these past few months. But now, damn. I mean, really. Heaven is a place on earth.
So we finished, showered, and he got dressed to go - he has to volunteer in a couple of hours. On his way out, he kissed me, hugged me, and told me that I'm amazing and so sexy.
I can't even explain how great this makes me feel. All of my issues and angst just slid away for a few hours, and I was able to relax and enjoy the moment. Granted, I'm still in afterglow, but I'm deleriously happy right now. The past few days I've been in a 100% better mood, but now I'm even beyond that. Got some of my confidence back.
I'm not crazy; he's leaving in a week. We have plans to see each other a couple more times in the coming week, but after he goes, he's gone. So there's not really a danger of misplaced feelings. But there's no reason we can't be friends who like to get together.
And it also opens the door to other things that I've closed off for a while.
And now to go to bed because I have to work tonight, and I am exhausted.
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So great to read that you're happy and confident again!
*hugs you*
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~Nebula
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Rest up and I hope you get to see Joe a lot before he's gone. :-)
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*hugs*
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Yay mutually pleasureable, pressure-free sex that you feel just as good about the next day!
Lately my unattached guy friends have been complaining that the guys they meet seem to think that sex is a race. Come to think of it, my het female friends are saying the same thing. (Is it an epidemic of badsex?)