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You know what's funny? Since I've started this whole "not out for a relationship" thing, I've had many a guy trying to land me. I don't say this with pride or arrogance; I say this with annoyance. The guys I've been attracting lately have been d-grade guys. Not that I'm better than them by any means, I'm just saying that they're not the sort of people I should get involved with. For instance: a crystal queen, an achoholic, a player, a married guy, and a few assorted others. I realize that to find a prince, you have to kiss a lot of frogs, but at this point, what.ever.
The truth is, I'm just really lonely right now. I'm so busy that I don't get to actually spend time with anyone - friends or otherwise. And my friends, lately, have been...preoccupied.
I realized tonight that I don't have anyone to share the upcoming special stuff with. My birthday, graduation, whatever. And it kinda sucks. Of course, this is all relative. I'll be surrounded by friends and people who love me, and I'm sure everything will work out and be fine. I've just, lately, been in kind of a mood I can't quite shake off. I wanna be all cool and "tra la la" but at least, for the moment, I want to wallow in being completely and totally ughed-out. But I can't really talk to anyone about it, so I just keep my mouth shut and deal with it. I can't really talk about anything, anymore.
It's wierd, isn't it? The more open I become, the less I can speak.
The truth is, I'm just really lonely right now. I'm so busy that I don't get to actually spend time with anyone - friends or otherwise. And my friends, lately, have been...preoccupied.
I realized tonight that I don't have anyone to share the upcoming special stuff with. My birthday, graduation, whatever. And it kinda sucks. Of course, this is all relative. I'll be surrounded by friends and people who love me, and I'm sure everything will work out and be fine. I've just, lately, been in kind of a mood I can't quite shake off. I wanna be all cool and "tra la la" but at least, for the moment, I want to wallow in being completely and totally ughed-out. But I can't really talk to anyone about it, so I just keep my mouth shut and deal with it. I can't really talk about anything, anymore.
It's wierd, isn't it? The more open I become, the less I can speak.
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