who are you behind your mask?

[synapticjava]

Well, last night was the Masquerade Ball. It went off really well. I'm happy for the ones who planned it. A lot of people were there. Dinner could have been better (damn veggies), but it wasn't bad. I didn't dance, though. That'll be explained later. I had a pretty good/pretty miserable time. Anyway, pics are here:



















Okay, so the reason I was miserable is right here, but warning, strong heavy emotional stuff lies ahead:

Okay, the whole night, I kept thinking about Chris. Pretty normal, I know, but it was pretty bad last night, and the last couple of days actually. I miss him a lot, and being at the dance just felt wrong and wierd for some reason. Let alone dancing. I had a good time, but it was killing me to watch all the couples dance and have fun. And then George and Anna are so cute, but they remind me a lot of me and Chris. I also realized the other night at the Moon that I started gaining weight at the same time we broke up, back in June. Coincidince, I think not. Anyway, this whole week has just been really really shitty, and I just want this quarter to be over, and I want to feel better about everything. And people asking me if I'm alright really doesn't help. It's just a really crappy place to be right now, and I hate it. I'm pissed off at myself for feeling this way, but at the same time, I feel like I *should* feel this way, and then there's the whole way I'm feeling: all depressed and crappy and un-happy feelings. It's not good. This needs to be over right now. I hate it.

Comments

[bloodroses27.livejournal.com]

I kind of figured that's what was going on.

The chanelier lights did some funky things.

Yeah

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Yeah they did, they did it in all of my pics. I think it's because I was using the night flash on my camera, and it's really meant for being outside, bu the normal flash wouldn't have been bright enough. *shrugs* it looks kinda cool though.