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Saw Guys and Balls tonight. I laughed my ass off. If you ever have the chance - see it. It's in German with English subtitles. It's HI-larious. And sweet and just an all around good movie.
Same old crap. The film sold out, and most of the people there were couples. Which, yay. But with everything going on right now, I couldn't help but feel a little...lost?
It's not only the couple thing, although that's a lot of it (sidebar - is this normal behavior? being a little jealous and slightly bitter of people? even when I know it's not the right time for me and know that it wouldn't be good for me right now?).
You know, I'm trying. I really am trying to let things go and not overanalyze things and think about things I can't control so much. I know relationships and friendships break up or change all the time. I know I'm not alone in feeling how I do. I'm not alone at all, I know that. But sometimes I do feel like it. And I try to ignore it and just be happy for what I have, and that's what I'm doing now. But I keep thinking about things. About how things in my life kind of falter. Chris, Jen, Ryan, now Genivieve. But then I look at how much fun I had last night, and how much fun I've had with the guys, and all of a sudden I feel like maybe it's not just me. Maybe I'm not as bad at relationships as I think I am.
Anyway, bottom line is that I'm not feeling well tonight. Don't be suprised if you see a post later of angst!spander or even *gasp* original work.
Same old crap. The film sold out, and most of the people there were couples. Which, yay. But with everything going on right now, I couldn't help but feel a little...lost?
It's not only the couple thing, although that's a lot of it (sidebar - is this normal behavior? being a little jealous and slightly bitter of people? even when I know it's not the right time for me and know that it wouldn't be good for me right now?).
You know, I'm trying. I really am trying to let things go and not overanalyze things and think about things I can't control so much. I know relationships and friendships break up or change all the time. I know I'm not alone in feeling how I do. I'm not alone at all, I know that. But sometimes I do feel like it. And I try to ignore it and just be happy for what I have, and that's what I'm doing now. But I keep thinking about things. About how things in my life kind of falter. Chris, Jen, Ryan, now Genivieve. But then I look at how much fun I had last night, and how much fun I've had with the guys, and all of a sudden I feel like maybe it's not just me. Maybe I'm not as bad at relationships as I think I am.
Anyway, bottom line is that I'm not feeling well tonight. Don't be suprised if you see a post later of angst!spander or even *gasp* original work.
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