Bittersweet

[synapticjava]

Saw Guys and Balls tonight. I laughed my ass off. If you ever have the chance - see it. It's in German with English subtitles. It's HI-larious. And sweet and just an all around good movie.


Same old crap. The film sold out, and most of the people there were couples. Which, yay. But with everything going on right now, I couldn't help but feel a little...lost?

It's not only the couple thing, although that's a lot of it (sidebar - is this normal behavior? being a little jealous and slightly bitter of people? even when I know it's not the right time for me and know that it wouldn't be good for me right now?).

You know, I'm trying. I really am trying to let things go and not overanalyze things and think about things I can't control so much. I know relationships and friendships break up or change all the time. I know I'm not alone in feeling how I do. I'm not alone at all, I know that. But sometimes I do feel like it. And I try to ignore it and just be happy for what I have, and that's what I'm doing now. But I keep thinking about things. About how things in my life kind of falter. Chris, Jen, Ryan, now Genivieve. But then I look at how much fun I had last night, and how much fun I've had with the guys, and all of a sudden I feel like maybe it's not just me. Maybe I'm not as bad at relationships as I think I am.

Anyway, bottom line is that I'm not feeling well tonight. Don't be suprised if you see a post later of angst!spander or even *gasp* original work.

Comments

bittersweet

[sunnyd-lite.livejournal.com]

Nope not just you. Did you ever read Briget Jones and her rant against the smuggly marrieds? Most of the time I can either ignore or brush it off, but every now and then it's like "Where's MY fella?" Focus on the happy, or the angsty Spander (I'm greedy that way) 'kay, think I'm upto about a quarter's worth of unsolicited commentary here *shrug*

[lunabee34.livejournal.com]

Yes. I am in a constant state of jealousy and slight bitterness. Do not despair. It's part of being human.

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

*whew*

[taruma16.livejournal.com]

It's not just you! The most lonely I feel in a crowd sometimes!

I knew you'd like the film!

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

One of the best movies i've seen in a long time.

[catching-tigers.livejournal.com]

nothing wrong with being a bit grumpy or bitter, or whatever the hell. but know that sometimes things arent really as lovely as they seem. i mean, personally, im constantly hating couples (i was ujst about to post that very same thing, actually)... but thats cause my boyfriend lives in fucking IRELAND and i see all these couples completely taking for granted the time they have together... when i have to plan for months (or at least weeks) in advance just to see him, and when i do, its never long enough and im never quite satisfied.