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godfuckingdammitjesuschristshitgoddamfuck! I'm sick of this shit.
I just went through my closet to find something to wear to the show tonight. And go fucking figure - all my nice stuff doesn't fucking fit my fat ass. Or more specifically, my fucking manboobs. All of my shirts are too tight across the chest, and if its not that, my sweaters dip in under my fucking stomache. I'm so fucking sick of this shit. I'm excersising regularily and my entire diet has changed as well as how *much* I've eaten. It's been four fucking weeks since I've had anything with sugar in it - AT ALL. No chocolate, I've cut carbs, I don't drink soda anymore. I've cut way back on dairy, I drink water all the fucking time. I'm not enjoying what I'm eating anymore, *WHEN* I fucking eat anything - I'd kill someone for a Pepsi right now. AND IT'S NOT DOING ANY FUCKING GOOD AT ALL. I hate my fucking body.
I just went through my closet to find something to wear to the show tonight. And go fucking figure - all my nice stuff doesn't fucking fit my fat ass. Or more specifically, my fucking manboobs. All of my shirts are too tight across the chest, and if its not that, my sweaters dip in under my fucking stomache. I'm so fucking sick of this shit. I'm excersising regularily and my entire diet has changed as well as how *much* I've eaten. It's been four fucking weeks since I've had anything with sugar in it - AT ALL. No chocolate, I've cut carbs, I don't drink soda anymore. I've cut way back on dairy, I drink water all the fucking time. I'm not enjoying what I'm eating anymore, *WHEN* I fucking eat anything - I'd kill someone for a Pepsi right now. AND IT'S NOT DOING ANY FUCKING GOOD AT ALL. I hate my fucking body.
