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Wow, that was a pretty cheesey subject line...
But first, this is who I saw...
Alright, alright, so I figure it’s probably about time to tell ya about the concertJ I’ve kept you in suspense long enoughJ Well, Friday night I closed at work, and then got up about 8 Saturday morning. Left around 9 and got to school at exactly 12 noon. The drive was actually really nice. I had some time to clear out my head and all that. Anyway, I got on campus at exactly noon, so I was on schedule! That’s never happened for a road trip before. Anyway, I met Anne at Sophie’s a couple minutes later. That is our café if you forgot. Anyway, I met her and we talked for a few minutes. Then we headed over to the dorm where Chris lives, the same dorm I was in last year and am in this year. My I.D. let me into the building, so that was easy. We found Chris in the computer lab and kidnapped him. We all went out to lunch at the Moon, the local truck stop diner that we always go to, aside from Denny’s. There we ate and talked for a couple hours. Things with Chris were a little odd at first. It was like we didn’t know how to act…like we were both nervous and didn’t know what to do or say. But, we made it through. He had a lot of work to get done, so me and Anne dropped him off at the dorm and we headed out for Tinley Park. It was a wild drive. Anne doesn’t have a radio, so we kind of made our own entertainment. It was quite a ride, let me tell you. It took us almost an hour and half to get there, going from the far north side of Chicago to the far south side! When we got there, the parking lot wasn’t open yet, so we took a little drive around the town nearby. 20 minutes later we found civilization and no more cornfields! So, even though we’d just eaten we went to Steak and Shake. I love that place. So we ate there, and about the time we finished, the parking lot to the pavilion opened up. When we got back, we were literally the 10th car parked. And I’m just kind of awed by the size of the thing. It’s freaking huge!!! You gotta remember-I come from a rather small town so I’m not all used to big stuff. Anyway, we got to the gate and had to wait in line for them to open up the gates. The people in line around us were starting to get pissed because Anne and I kept saying “Where are we sitting again-oh, that’s right, Row A!” or something to that effect. Front row seats. Hells yes! Anyway, we get into the park and buy our T-shirts. $50 for 2 freaking t-shirts and $3.25 for a water! I about crapped my pants! Needless to say, I really don’t want to get my credit card bill next monthL Anyway, after all that was done, Anne and I went and found our seats. It was really cool because we had to show our tickets to like 10 people to get to our seats. Made me feel all special like. So we found our seats and decided we wanted to walk around for a while. We went out and bought some lemonade and smoke some cigs for a while. Then this guy came around with free tickets to the VIP Lounge. So we went in there for a while and listened to Dan Dorrah or something like that. Anyway, it was really cool because we were sitting at a table right up front drinking our lemonade and being all adult-like. It was funJ We were offered drinks, but turned them down thank you very much. Anyway, about an hour later we went and found our seats again and sat down waiting for the concert to start. We were actually lucky because the people around us were really cool. We sat and talked to them for awhile. Bernard was hitting on Anne. It was funny. Wish it would have been me though. Damn that man was hot. He was there with his sister. It was really sweet. His sister is like 19, but he was all protective of her and getting her sweater and buying her stuff. Melted my heart it did. Anyway, we talked to them for about an hour before the concert started. Since we had front row tickets, we got to go up to the stage. So when the lights went out and the first note was struck, me and Anne were climbing over people to get right up there. The first up was Counting Crows. They were amazing. This being my first concert, I didn’t know what to think. But I can’t wait for them to tour again! After them, there was a 10 minute break in which I fought at least 25,000 (I’m not exaggerating) other guys to get to the bathroom. After the Counting Crows came John Mayer. I’d never heard of him until Anne told me about him and copied his albums for me. He’s amazingly talented. I didn’t stop dancing at all. And then at the end, he pointed at Anne and made eye contact with her. Right after that, he sang “Your body is a wonderland” She thinks and tells everyone that he sang it to her. Right…Anyway, to make a very very long story short, the concert was awesome. Well, it took us about 2 hours to get back to school. When we got back, we decided we wanted to go out for breakfast. So Tex, Jen, Anne and I went to the Moon and had breakfast at 2AM. Originally, I was supposed to stay with Tex and Jen but they were fighting. So I called Chris…I wound up staying with him. Anyway, after breakfast we went back to school, let myself into the building and up to Chris’ room. My heart was pounding as hard as I was pounding on the door. He opened it and all of a sudden something hit me. Something had changed…we were…different somehow. He made the bed for me to sleep in. I asked him where he was going to sleep and he said on the couch. I told him I’d sleep on the couch and he said no. So we talked for a while about stupid shit-family, money, work. And then I thanked him for letting me stay with him. He hugged me and said “what are friends for?” I didn’t really know what to make of it…But, I started taking off my shirt getting ready for bed, and I kind of hid myself from him and he kind of turned away. Before I completely had it unbuttoned, he said goodnight and that he would wake me up before he left in the morning. He shut the door behind him. As I was getting undressed, it all started to build up. But, I was too tired and passed out before I could think much of anything. The next morning, he came in and woke me up. He asked if I needed to shower, and I told him I’d wait till I got home. He told me goodbye and have a safe trip and I said Okay, see ya in a couple weeks. And we both left…
I think the biggest thing that I got out of everything is closure. The fact that me and Chris can still be friends without either one of us feeling pain around the other. It makes me feel really good knowing that I’ll be okay. I feel like I can let myself let go now, move on. I think the weirdest thing about us breaking up is that there wasn’t any animosity. I didn’t quite know how to deal with it…I guess now I do. I’ll always love him and I’ll always treasure the time we had together, but I see now the time we had together was all we should have had. Anyway, I’m moving on. I’m not going to jump right into the next relationship I don’t think. I want a relationship, but I want to move slowly now. I know now what great things lie in getting to know each other. I know how it feels to be able to open up. I know what it feels to love and be loved. And I know that everything’s going to be okay. Right now, I feel great. Going back to school in a week. This is it. Taking stock of my life. What I want, what I need. My goals. I can’t wait to get there.
But first, this is who I saw...
Alright, alright, so I figure it’s probably about time to tell ya about the concertJ I’ve kept you in suspense long enoughJ Well, Friday night I closed at work, and then got up about 8 Saturday morning. Left around 9 and got to school at exactly 12 noon. The drive was actually really nice. I had some time to clear out my head and all that. Anyway, I got on campus at exactly noon, so I was on schedule! That’s never happened for a road trip before. Anyway, I met Anne at Sophie’s a couple minutes later. That is our café if you forgot. Anyway, I met her and we talked for a few minutes. Then we headed over to the dorm where Chris lives, the same dorm I was in last year and am in this year. My I.D. let me into the building, so that was easy. We found Chris in the computer lab and kidnapped him. We all went out to lunch at the Moon, the local truck stop diner that we always go to, aside from Denny’s. There we ate and talked for a couple hours. Things with Chris were a little odd at first. It was like we didn’t know how to act…like we were both nervous and didn’t know what to do or say. But, we made it through. He had a lot of work to get done, so me and Anne dropped him off at the dorm and we headed out for Tinley Park. It was a wild drive. Anne doesn’t have a radio, so we kind of made our own entertainment. It was quite a ride, let me tell you. It took us almost an hour and half to get there, going from the far north side of Chicago to the far south side! When we got there, the parking lot wasn’t open yet, so we took a little drive around the town nearby. 20 minutes later we found civilization and no more cornfields! So, even though we’d just eaten we went to Steak and Shake. I love that place. So we ate there, and about the time we finished, the parking lot to the pavilion opened up. When we got back, we were literally the 10th car parked. And I’m just kind of awed by the size of the thing. It’s freaking huge!!! You gotta remember-I come from a rather small town so I’m not all used to big stuff. Anyway, we got to the gate and had to wait in line for them to open up the gates. The people in line around us were starting to get pissed because Anne and I kept saying “Where are we sitting again-oh, that’s right, Row A!” or something to that effect. Front row seats. Hells yes! Anyway, we get into the park and buy our T-shirts. $50 for 2 freaking t-shirts and $3.25 for a water! I about crapped my pants! Needless to say, I really don’t want to get my credit card bill next monthL Anyway, after all that was done, Anne and I went and found our seats. It was really cool because we had to show our tickets to like 10 people to get to our seats. Made me feel all special like. So we found our seats and decided we wanted to walk around for a while. We went out and bought some lemonade and smoke some cigs for a while. Then this guy came around with free tickets to the VIP Lounge. So we went in there for a while and listened to Dan Dorrah or something like that. Anyway, it was really cool because we were sitting at a table right up front drinking our lemonade and being all adult-like. It was funJ We were offered drinks, but turned them down thank you very much. Anyway, about an hour later we went and found our seats again and sat down waiting for the concert to start. We were actually lucky because the people around us were really cool. We sat and talked to them for awhile. Bernard was hitting on Anne. It was funny. Wish it would have been me though. Damn that man was hot. He was there with his sister. It was really sweet. His sister is like 19, but he was all protective of her and getting her sweater and buying her stuff. Melted my heart it did. Anyway, we talked to them for about an hour before the concert started. Since we had front row tickets, we got to go up to the stage. So when the lights went out and the first note was struck, me and Anne were climbing over people to get right up there. The first up was Counting Crows. They were amazing. This being my first concert, I didn’t know what to think. But I can’t wait for them to tour again! After them, there was a 10 minute break in which I fought at least 25,000 (I’m not exaggerating) other guys to get to the bathroom. After the Counting Crows came John Mayer. I’d never heard of him until Anne told me about him and copied his albums for me. He’s amazingly talented. I didn’t stop dancing at all. And then at the end, he pointed at Anne and made eye contact with her. Right after that, he sang “Your body is a wonderland” She thinks and tells everyone that he sang it to her. Right…Anyway, to make a very very long story short, the concert was awesome. Well, it took us about 2 hours to get back to school. When we got back, we decided we wanted to go out for breakfast. So Tex, Jen, Anne and I went to the Moon and had breakfast at 2AM. Originally, I was supposed to stay with Tex and Jen but they were fighting. So I called Chris…I wound up staying with him. Anyway, after breakfast we went back to school, let myself into the building and up to Chris’ room. My heart was pounding as hard as I was pounding on the door. He opened it and all of a sudden something hit me. Something had changed…we were…different somehow. He made the bed for me to sleep in. I asked him where he was going to sleep and he said on the couch. I told him I’d sleep on the couch and he said no. So we talked for a while about stupid shit-family, money, work. And then I thanked him for letting me stay with him. He hugged me and said “what are friends for?” I didn’t really know what to make of it…But, I started taking off my shirt getting ready for bed, and I kind of hid myself from him and he kind of turned away. Before I completely had it unbuttoned, he said goodnight and that he would wake me up before he left in the morning. He shut the door behind him. As I was getting undressed, it all started to build up. But, I was too tired and passed out before I could think much of anything. The next morning, he came in and woke me up. He asked if I needed to shower, and I told him I’d wait till I got home. He told me goodbye and have a safe trip and I said Okay, see ya in a couple weeks. And we both left…
I think the biggest thing that I got out of everything is closure. The fact that me and Chris can still be friends without either one of us feeling pain around the other. It makes me feel really good knowing that I’ll be okay. I feel like I can let myself let go now, move on. I think the weirdest thing about us breaking up is that there wasn’t any animosity. I didn’t quite know how to deal with it…I guess now I do. I’ll always love him and I’ll always treasure the time we had together, but I see now the time we had together was all we should have had. Anyway, I’m moving on. I’m not going to jump right into the next relationship I don’t think. I want a relationship, but I want to move slowly now. I know now what great things lie in getting to know each other. I know how it feels to be able to open up. I know what it feels to love and be loved. And I know that everything’s going to be okay. Right now, I feel great. Going back to school in a week. This is it. Taking stock of my life. What I want, what I need. My goals. I can’t wait to get there.
