New Original Drabbles!

Here's two I finished. First one's pretty morbid, have no clue where it came from.


Silky silver smoke sways in the jittering halogen light bulb suspended from the ceiling with chains. Stale, it slaps my face with its stench. It is greasy against my skin. It makes my teeth feel filmy, my tongue thick and my throat dries even as it heaves. Through the halo of chemical fog you shine, glittering against splashes of shadow and patches of clinical glow. Hair pasted to your brow with cold sweat, eyes ringed in red. A broken smile puling at your cracked lips. Even in death you take my breath away. Even in death I crave your touch.


You gave me life when you came alive. When your fingers first clawed my flesh. When your tongue first danced with mine. When you became me and I became you, when we were one. My first breath was the scream escaping your lips. My first cry was the arch of your back beneath me. My first sight was you shivering in the night. I still possess all of you, though you own all of me. I give you back my life so that you may grant me time to live it, so that each day I can come alive again.

Update!

So, I've decided to kinda make this a regular thing:) At least twice a week I'm gonna come down here to the cafe and order a coffee (it's $1.25) and sit here and be online again. It's nice, having this back a little bit. Especially since it kinda seems like other things are on-track-worthy. Not wanting to jinx myself, though. And also not gonna give myself a happy high, because then its bad too. But I'd have to say that for now...I'm content. I've got this great guy in my life that I can't stop thinking about. Starting monday, I'll have this new job that I might hate but I'll be making more money than ever. I'm writing again. I'm mostly back in the world, but under my terms. Getting some new friends, even. Gabriel from HD and I are going to hang out Halloween with our respective boyfriends and watch the parade if I get home from work early enough. And Philip will be back from Europe in a couple days! You know it's funny considering how we grew to be such good friends.

And for the best news yet: My dad's being released from the nursing home! He's being released under my grandmother's care because there aren't any stairs at her place. My mom's a little upset about that, that she still can't have him home. But they decided it's the best decision. He's not allowed to put any weight on his bad leg, he can't climb stairs, and they pretty much told him he's never going to work again outside of an office. But he's alive, he can walk. They hired someone to replace him as main contractor, so now he can focus on running the business.

You know, I just finished reading Dean Koontz's From The Corner of his Eye. Fundamentally, it's a book about quantum physics and the saint, Barthalomew, and how the lesson of his life is the chain of reactions ripples through everything, so that even a bird taking flight in China could cause a tornado here. I guess through all of this...( minidiscussion of spirituality under the cut )

Anyway, it's a beautiful day in the neighborhood. Sunny, warming up (though still fall crispy), and I have to go to work. Last day, though, because I think I'm calling in tomorrow to spend with my baby. He gets back tonight and is supposed to call me. See...if you could see, I've got this huge smile on.