What I learned today

1. that in matters of the heart, men, and relationships, i am, actually, insane. more on this as it progresses throughout the week.

2. i actually cannot talk and work at the same time. er rather, listen to an earpiece and still try and sell a $1,000 computer at the same time.

3. officemax is funny. the people that work there, they drink the kool-aid because i felt like i had walked into an episode of gulla gulla island. does anyone else remember that show?

4. even after being stark raving mad for a few hours last night, today I was rather chipper.

which brings me to my next point:

I need to make an apointment with a therapist. Last night I had a really bad night. Crying, sobbing, screaming. I picked some boxes out of the trash and started packing. I threw a bunch of plates and broke them, along with most of the stuff in the sink. It was partly because of Neil-type things. But mostly everything else, the last few months all at once rushing in. I've kind of decided I need to talk to someone. I can't do it all on my own. These kind of high and lows aren't normal to any degree.

Anyway, I'm gonna run. My boss is taking me out for a beer to commemorate my first day.