L2bL Update & Author's Preface

Hey everyone. I'm updating Learn to be Lonely today with Chapter 9 and a note about future updates. As some of you know, I start back to school tomorrow. It's my last year, and I'm taking a pretty heavy course load (20 hours), which means all my attention needs to be focused there. What that means in regards to L2bL or any other possible fics is that I'm not going to be able to update as frequently or regularily as I'd like. I'm not going to put this on hiatus, because I am still working on it and I don't want to abandon it, but I want you to know chapters will probably be few and far between, and to hang in there with me and I'll try and update when I can.

That said, on with the chapter!

Title: Learn to be Lonely Chapter 9/?
Author: chocgood84
Rating: NC-17 for brief violence and sexual content
Pairing: BtVS Spike/Xander
Author’s Note: Yes, I am aware that the timeline is a little screwed up and that Giles didn’t own the Magic Box until after Adam and after Dawn arrived. But in my reality, who’s Dawn? Adam what? Also, a huge spanking thanks to kitty_poker1 for being my official L2BL beta.
Disclaimer: These character’s aren’t mine, never were; I don’t get any profit for this hobby, so don’t sue – Thanks.
Warning: Brief violence, nudity, and hetero and homo sexual content and situations. And some h0t man-luvin.
Previous parts can be found here.

( Chapter 9 )

No love, no glory...

God, why do I listen to this song? It only depresses me. *headdesk*

Alright, so here we are. Tomorrow I start school again. Is it normal to be this nervous? Actually, nevermind. I know why I'm nervous. I'm taking on the biggest course load of my life at a school I've not really attended before surrounded by thousands of people I've never met. I shouldn't really worry though, I'm a good student, I can do this. Just means I need to be more organized, more focused, and more responsible. Three things that I'm not particularily good at. Man, talk about day-before jitters. I am so very much not liking this. But again, in 9 months (knock on wood), this will all be over. I can turn my back on DePaul and walk away with my overly-deserved degree. On the other hand, I'm seeing Barat people by the dozens today. The campus is crawling with them. Unfortunetely, it's mostly ones that I'd rather *not* see. But, oh well. It's still nice to see a familiar face.

I had this awful dream last night, one which I woke up from and was afraid to fall back asleep for a while. I had to get up and walk around the apartment to keep myself from falling back asleep. I won't go into too much detail, but it was a bad one. About my mum. Isn't it funny that no matter how old we get, there's something about our mothers that will always get us, emotionally?

Today, walking to the train station, I had this big stupid grin on my face because it was one of those "wow, I'm a city guy" moments. Here I was, swerving in and out of people on Belmont and trying not to get spit on by the homeless guy that stands at the corner of Clark across from Starbucks. I'm waiting for the crosswalk sign to change, and a cab comes flying out of no where and nearly hits me, and my kneejerk reaction wasn't to run away or start shaking - I yelled back at him (along with four other people standing there). Something odd, but in a way tells a lot about me and how I'm adjusting to city life. Anyway, I just thought it was neat.

Now I need to run, because I have to get my UPASS and my DePaul card *rolls eyes*. At least with my U-Pass I get free public transportation, which will be super nice with work. I'll try and update tomorrow after my meeting with Dr. C. and my Stats class.