Was not a bad day. Watched the Village (as posted earlier). I guess I did like the movie for what it was, but I don't appreciate how it was advertised as a suspense/horror film - it was nothing of the sort. If you're looking for a commentary on society or a character study - brilliant.
Also had Date Night with Kierre, which was fun. We went to Olive Garden and pigged out on appetizers and salad. Mmmmm...pasta. Ah well. I think we're making that a weekly thing. The more and more I get to know her the better I like her. Which is funny because she's mortal enemies with Vive, my best friend. *shrugs* That's how the cookie crumbles methinks.
Speaking of Vive - she's who I was supposed to move in with in June. After about a two hour conversation today, we decided it'd be best if we just got our own apartments - neither one of us want to jepordize our friendship or our sanity/privacy. So, we decided it's best this way. So now I get to find my *own* place and make my *own* rules and have my *own* parties without worrying about checking with a roomate. Yay! This really makes me feel a lot better and takes a huge amount of stress off my shoulders. Maybe now I can get some sleep, eh?
It's funny - things are actually good right now, you know, aside from the stress factors. But I'm not really excited about anything, not really. I feel less than mediocre about my writing lately - Sunlight should have been way better than it was, and I'm kind of "eh" about school, and far less "eh" about anything to do with people. Maybe I'm just burnt out or I've got spring fever or something (stupid Pineal Gland!), but I just kinda feel...lost right now. I'm starting to doubt things I really shouldn't be doubting right now - my major, future career, school in general. Pretty crappy feeling if you ask me.
I miss a lot of people. I miss Grace and the way things used to be. I miss the friends I had growing up and the friends I've lost while doing so. Tonight at dinner, there were a bunch of high school couples going out - the Sadie Hawkins dance or something, and it made me really sad. Also kind of bitter because I didn't go to those things - I didn't feel welcome there. There's a lot of things I missed out on because of the stupid hicks that run the backwater school system back home. And then, of course, some of the high school kids were throwing around "fag" and "queer" and "gay". I really feel like giving up and crawling into my gay little hole and stay gay all alone away from everyone and everything until it's safe to come back out. And I hate that I feel like that - and that so many other people feel the same way. I just feel like the fight's gone out of me, I guess.
Well this post was...depressing.
Also had Date Night with Kierre, which was fun. We went to Olive Garden and pigged out on appetizers and salad. Mmmmm...pasta. Ah well. I think we're making that a weekly thing. The more and more I get to know her the better I like her. Which is funny because she's mortal enemies with Vive, my best friend. *shrugs* That's how the cookie crumbles methinks.
Speaking of Vive - she's who I was supposed to move in with in June. After about a two hour conversation today, we decided it'd be best if we just got our own apartments - neither one of us want to jepordize our friendship or our sanity/privacy. So, we decided it's best this way. So now I get to find my *own* place and make my *own* rules and have my *own* parties without worrying about checking with a roomate. Yay! This really makes me feel a lot better and takes a huge amount of stress off my shoulders. Maybe now I can get some sleep, eh?
It's funny - things are actually good right now, you know, aside from the stress factors. But I'm not really excited about anything, not really. I feel less than mediocre about my writing lately - Sunlight should have been way better than it was, and I'm kind of "eh" about school, and far less "eh" about anything to do with people. Maybe I'm just burnt out or I've got spring fever or something (stupid Pineal Gland!), but I just kinda feel...lost right now. I'm starting to doubt things I really shouldn't be doubting right now - my major, future career, school in general. Pretty crappy feeling if you ask me.
I miss a lot of people. I miss Grace and the way things used to be. I miss the friends I had growing up and the friends I've lost while doing so. Tonight at dinner, there were a bunch of high school couples going out - the Sadie Hawkins dance or something, and it made me really sad. Also kind of bitter because I didn't go to those things - I didn't feel welcome there. There's a lot of things I missed out on because of the stupid hicks that run the backwater school system back home. And then, of course, some of the high school kids were throwing around "fag" and "queer" and "gay". I really feel like giving up and crawling into my gay little hole and stay gay all alone away from everyone and everything until it's safe to come back out. And I hate that I feel like that - and that so many other people feel the same way. I just feel like the fight's gone out of me, I guess.
Well this post was...depressing.