Grr

Well, it's been awhile, so I thought I would reiterate my hatred of DePaul =-D

I've just been putting together my schedule for Autumn Quarter next year. It sucks. Well, I guess it's not too bad. It's just that I'll have to take a class at the LPC and I'm not too terribly excited about it. A three hour philosophy class is not my cup o' bacardi. Er, tea, yeah that's it. Tea. *nods* Anyway, providing that I get into all the classes that I *need*, it shouldn't be too horrible. But I'm not betting the farm that I will get in. A Morsche and Bradshaw class---Jesus. Anyway, this is what the schedule's lookin like *prays to the gods classes don't fill up before I can register*

( So, schedule's as follows: )

So for sure, I'm looking forward to American's in Paris. I love Paris, and I love Bradshaw. The only bad thing - 10:40 in the morning. Ugh. After being spoiled this year with no classes before noon. Ah well, I shall survive. And the Forensic Chem looks really really interesting. And plus, it's taught by Morsche. What's better? *daydreams* Anyway, maybe all my classes will be well. The only psych classes here at Barat that I haven't taken yet are taught by The Bastard in the Autumn, so that's how come no psych. OH MY GOD!!! NOOOOO psychology classes *is flabergasted*. Hmm...what do ya know?

And the best freaking part - these are all requirement fillers. Meaning that after these, I'll only have 7 more requirements, including Experiential Learning, Capstone, to fulfill. Which means that everything after next year, aside from Capstone (cuz let's face it, I'm so not taking it with The Bastard), will be electives!!! WHOOHOOOOOOOO!!!! Two years to go. Two years. Twoooo years!!!! *does cartwheels* That's assuming I survive this year...4 weeks left...4 WEEKS LEFT!!!! *does backflips*

Um yes, I think I may be a tad sick of school...

Hmm...

Clean room - Check
Do Laundry - Check
Download What dreams may come - Check
Stats - bah
Bibliography that was due last tuesday - bah
Dishes - bah
Paperwork - bah
Finish Dracula - bah
Hook up N64 - Check
Freak out about money - Check

Okay

So I've decided that for my 21st birthday, next year, I'm going to take a week off school and work and go somewhere. But I have no idea where I want to go. I've narrowed it down to Miami, New York, New Orleans, Mexico, San Diego, or San Fransisco. Hmm...

Somebody ought to take you in, teach you how to love again

Hmm...I don't know what my problem is today. I feel really out of it, and like I'm lost or something. I'm very scared about the future. I'm very unhappy with the past. And I'm dissapointed with the present. I just don't feel like I'm on the right path. But I don't know how to get to where I'm supposed to be. Maybe it's just this damn birthday. It shouldn't be a big deal. It's just another day. It's not even that it's a big birthday either. It's just 20. But why do I feel like everything is changing? Why do I feel like I'm losing something? Why do I feel like I'm not myself anymore?

I wish these dreams would stop. For the past couple of weeks, I've been woken up every night by either nightmares or really wierd dreams that freak me out. And I've been waking up in the morning more tired than I was when I went to bed, and the bed's all messed up and I'm in an entirely different position. I just want them to stop. There's a couple that I've had every night, and they scares the hell out of me, though I know they shouldn't.

( These Dreams )

So yeah, bad bad dreams. There's others, but those are two that I have every night. I just wish they would stop. I feel like such a child when I wake up and have the urge just to bawl. I really hope they'll stop soon.

Life is funny, isn't it?