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[synapticjava]

Thought I'd post this. It's not really anything. It's not fan-related. It's not anything really. But I needed it, so here it is.

Passing by on my way to who knows where
I noticed that time had passed me by while I was living my life.
I see the trees as the leaves change from green to brown
And at last float away only to return to where they were concieved.
I notice the sound of the hatchling as it screams to life.
I see it soar and twist and turn in jubilent lifewaves
Only to lose its way and return to the earth.
I feel this coldness in my lungs.
With every breath I seem to expell more of my lifewarmth.
The heat once burning inside me has subsided to subzero climates.
No known love can survive in this wasteland that once was bursting with life.
With energy.
Lost forever the glow I once gave that could have shown the world a new light.
Lost is my path that required nurturing and careful retracing.
I can no longer understand things that once were so clear.
I fear the earth.
I fear returning to what I cannot remember or what may never have been.
What is this thing that once so enthralled me?
Where have all my excuses and reasons and muses gone?
I can no longer retrace my steps for the gates have closed.
This garden is not Genisis and I am not the original.
I am only myself, one who can no longer remember reason
Or live in hope or expel fear.
Only myself.
I am all I have to give, all I have to lose, all I have to love and all I have to hate.