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Chicago won the World Series.
How Neat!
I live in a city that just won something. Cool.
How Neat!
I live in a city that just won something. Cool.
If you're new here - I'm talking about my school. I. Fucking. Hate. It. There's never any parking, people here are rude and bitchy, it's expensive as all hell, and I am here all the fucking time.
Hate. It.
And thus concludes this evening's anger!post.
EDIT:
*ahem*
I finished everything I need for my research study. Everything. All of it. Tomorrow, we go to the Instututional Review Board so they can slap their seal of approval on it. They could also point and laugh at me and tell me NO WAY, in which case I would have to go away. Far far away. But I'm being positive.
So. Yay.
Tags:
Hey - I know a lot of you are database type people, and some of you are proffesional type people. Well, I'm in a bind and need some help.
I'm trying to find twelve towns at random, from different parts of the US. And I'm trying to search by population. I need half of them to be under 5,000 and half of them to be more than 25,000. I have to find the high school/college of that town and the contact person.
Does anyone know how to go about doing this? I've tried the US Census Bureau but those fucktards didn't help. And neither did State websites.
*cries*
I'm trying to find twelve towns at random, from different parts of the US. And I'm trying to search by population. I need half of them to be under 5,000 and half of them to be more than 25,000. I have to find the high school/college of that town and the contact person.
Does anyone know how to go about doing this? I've tried the US Census Bureau but those fucktards didn't help. And neither did State websites.
*cries*
I am, really. Just REALLY busy right now. Between work and school, I haven't really had any time to myself. We're registering for classes and whatnot, and then I've got a whole bunch of insurance/loan stuff to take care of. And of course the research study's taking up a LOT of my time.
Like, right now I should be asleep because I have to be at work in 8 hours. But, as tired as I am and as much as I want to sleep, I just feel like there's so much else I should be doing. I hate that feeling.
The last few days I've been a little...off. In that space of apathy. Not sad or happy or anything. Just kind of...here. It sounds stupid and pathetic, but I really kinda wish I was dating someone right now. Not because I really want or need a someone right now, but just because I feel like I'm not open to anyone anymore. I've been making a lot of friends, but I've been getting more and more distant from my other friends, and I'm kind of in that mood of "will it ever happen fo rme?". I'm not talking about forever love, I'm talking about someone to snuggle up with at night or to go on walks with or drink coffee and cider with. Someone to hold hands with. All that kind of sappy crap. I've been a little bitter lately - I can't stand to be around couples right now. I just...can't.
It'll pass. It always does. I just keep thinking: i'm graduating soon. Like, really soon. And it kinda scares me.
I finished the next chapter of L2bL and sent it to kitty. So, sometime this week y'all should get an update.
I have more to say, but I'm wondering if maybe I just shouldn't. So I won't.
I'll update when I can.
Like, right now I should be asleep because I have to be at work in 8 hours. But, as tired as I am and as much as I want to sleep, I just feel like there's so much else I should be doing. I hate that feeling.
The last few days I've been a little...off. In that space of apathy. Not sad or happy or anything. Just kind of...here. It sounds stupid and pathetic, but I really kinda wish I was dating someone right now. Not because I really want or need a someone right now, but just because I feel like I'm not open to anyone anymore. I've been making a lot of friends, but I've been getting more and more distant from my other friends, and I'm kind of in that mood of "will it ever happen fo rme?". I'm not talking about forever love, I'm talking about someone to snuggle up with at night or to go on walks with or drink coffee and cider with. Someone to hold hands with. All that kind of sappy crap. I've been a little bitter lately - I can't stand to be around couples right now. I just...can't.
It'll pass. It always does. I just keep thinking: i'm graduating soon. Like, really soon. And it kinda scares me.
I finished the next chapter of L2bL and sent it to kitty. So, sometime this week y'all should get an update.
I have more to say, but I'm wondering if maybe I just shouldn't. So I won't.
I'll update when I can.
A little short, but a good intermission.
Title: Learn to be Lonely Chapter 12/?
Author:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
chocgood84
Rating: NC-17 for brief violence and sexual content
Pairing: BtVS Spike/Xander
Author’s Note: Yes, I am aware that the timeline is a little screwed up and that Giles didn’t own the Magic Box until after Adam and after Dawn arrived. But in my reality, who’s Dawn? Adam what? Also, a huge spanking thanks tokitty_poker1 for being my official L2BL beta.
Disclaimer: These character’s aren’t mine, never were; I don’t get any profit for this hobby, so don’t sue – Thanks.
Warning: Brief violence, nudity, and hetero and homo sexual content and situations. And some h0t man-luvin.
Previous parts at my website or in my memories.
( Chapter 12 )
Title: Learn to be Lonely Chapter 12/?
Author:
chocgood84Rating: NC-17 for brief violence and sexual content
Pairing: BtVS Spike/Xander
Author’s Note: Yes, I am aware that the timeline is a little screwed up and that Giles didn’t own the Magic Box until after Adam and after Dawn arrived. But in my reality, who’s Dawn? Adam what? Also, a huge spanking thanks to
kitty_poker1 for being my official L2BL beta.Disclaimer: These character’s aren’t mine, never were; I don’t get any profit for this hobby, so don’t sue – Thanks.
Warning: Brief violence, nudity, and hetero and homo sexual content and situations. And some h0t man-luvin.
Previous parts at my website or in my memories.
( Chapter 12 )
Okay, people. I'm all packed, the apartment is almost spotless. All that's left is to shower, do a once over, and load up the car and head out. I just checked weather.com, and supposedly there's a fog advisory for the drive home - great.
So I guess that's it - see you all in a few days. I'll be back Sunday night/Monday morning.
Have a fun weekend:)
So I guess that's it - see you all in a few days. I'll be back Sunday night/Monday morning.
Have a fun weekend:)
I just finished all the IRB work and the web survey for my study. As in - everything's completed. All that's left to do is a) get the study approved, and b) get some participants.
Holy crap.
I'm a researcher.
Holy crap.
I'm a researcher.
So I'm packing to go home. Spent the day writing and getting some various apartment things done. Haven't even started on schoolwork yet. That's the next thing to tackle, after packing. And not to overexcite anyone or anything, I may or may not have finished the next part of L2bL.
I know I say this everytime I go home, but this is kind of weird, packing to go home. It's the first time since I moved in that I'll be elsewhere for more than a night. So I've been obsessing all day about making sure all the candles and everything are put away and the radiator's aren't leaking, and the stove and oven are completely in the off position. All the faucets are off and the drains cleared. And that's just on this end of the going home oddness. I haven't actually gone yet. How's it going to be once I actually get there? Guess I'll find out tomorrow.
I'll probably do a quick post later tonight or before I leave tomorrow.
Odd.
I know I say this everytime I go home, but this is kind of weird, packing to go home. It's the first time since I moved in that I'll be elsewhere for more than a night. So I've been obsessing all day about making sure all the candles and everything are put away and the radiator's aren't leaking, and the stove and oven are completely in the off position. All the faucets are off and the drains cleared. And that's just on this end of the going home oddness. I haven't actually gone yet. How's it going to be once I actually get there? Guess I'll find out tomorrow.
I'll probably do a quick post later tonight or before I leave tomorrow.
Odd.
This is me. Skipping statistics.
Oh, come on. We're doing Repeated Measures ANOVA. That's kid stuff.
And is it too much to ask for *ONE DAY* all to myself? No? I didn't think so.
So plans for today are to finish up all the school work that I have to get caught up on, clean the apartment, do the trash and dishes, pack, load up the car, and to write some S/X goodness. *whoot*
Oh, come on. We're doing Repeated Measures ANOVA. That's kid stuff.
And is it too much to ask for *ONE DAY* all to myself? No? I didn't think so.
So plans for today are to finish up all the school work that I have to get caught up on, clean the apartment, do the trash and dishes, pack, load up the car, and to write some S/X goodness. *whoot*
Oh my goodness.
I finally caught up on ALL my livejournal comments. I'm finished! My Livejournal filtered inbox is EMPTY!
*collapses from weariness*
I finally caught up on ALL my livejournal comments. I'm finished! My Livejournal filtered inbox is EMPTY!
*collapses from weariness*
I've heard that all the world's a stage... la la la.
Rewatching a favorite: Trick. In my opinion one of the best films of all time. I haven't watched it since I moved to the city, and watching it now makes me laugh because it's SO TRUE.
Anyway, I've managed a way to get online at home for free. *whoot* To celebrate, I redid my livejournal - it's prettified for fall now. yay.
Which also means that I should be around a little more now. Which is very much of the good. yay internet, how much do I love you.
I go home in a little over one day. I'm excited to no end.
There was some other stuff I was going to post, but I really don't want get all deep and boo-hooey right now.
So there. I'm back.
Rewatching a favorite: Trick. In my opinion one of the best films of all time. I haven't watched it since I moved to the city, and watching it now makes me laugh because it's SO TRUE.
Anyway, I've managed a way to get online at home for free. *whoot* To celebrate, I redid my livejournal - it's prettified for fall now. yay.
Which also means that I should be around a little more now. Which is very much of the good. yay internet, how much do I love you.
I go home in a little over one day. I'm excited to no end.
There was some other stuff I was going to post, but I really don't want get all deep and boo-hooey right now.
So there. I'm back.
Another great song by Ryan Adams. smooches to lunabee34 for turning me onto him:)
Before I forget, I want to post a link to the front page article of last week's Chicago Reader. All of you slashers out there - look! It's healthy!!! I'm suprised, even if it is the Reader, that they had a FRONT PAGE article about Slash. I'm not all that happy that it's LotR and not BtVS, but hey, I'll take what I can get. How neat.
I finished my History paper, and I can honestly say that it is without a doubt the *WORST* paper I've ever written. The thesis is weak, the evidence is included but not supportive or analyzed, and the conclusion is to the effect of "so there that is. the end." I'm not expecting rave reviews. But I fulfilled at least some of the paper requirements - that's got to be worth something, right? What makes me sad and a teeny bit worried is that I don't care. Just like I didn't care that I walked into that midterm - I didn't even feel my pulse quicken, and that's odd.
*GAWKS* I'm looking at my tuition account right now - remember that I haven't paid for anything yet. It's telling me that for the quarter, I only owe $1, 240. Which, theoretically, the loan that I have to take out would be for about $6000. Which sounds almost right, but something is nagging at me and telling me that's soooooo wrong. Looks like I'm making a trip to Student Accounts tomorrow to get it straigtened out. We start registering next week. EEP! First quarter is ending soon, and I'm scared shitless. If the rest of this year goes by as fast as this quarter has, I'm fucked with a capitol F. I have no savings, no plans, no prospects, and no idea what the fuck I want to do.
Ah, life. Waits till you're down and then kicks you in the head.
Good times.
lunabee34 for turning me onto him:)Before I forget, I want to post a link to the front page article of last week's Chicago Reader. All of you slashers out there - look! It's healthy!!! I'm suprised, even if it is the Reader, that they had a FRONT PAGE article about Slash. I'm not all that happy that it's LotR and not BtVS, but hey, I'll take what I can get. How neat.
I finished my History paper, and I can honestly say that it is without a doubt the *WORST* paper I've ever written. The thesis is weak, the evidence is included but not supportive or analyzed, and the conclusion is to the effect of "so there that is. the end." I'm not expecting rave reviews. But I fulfilled at least some of the paper requirements - that's got to be worth something, right? What makes me sad and a teeny bit worried is that I don't care. Just like I didn't care that I walked into that midterm - I didn't even feel my pulse quicken, and that's odd.
*GAWKS* I'm looking at my tuition account right now - remember that I haven't paid for anything yet. It's telling me that for the quarter, I only owe $1, 240. Which, theoretically, the loan that I have to take out would be for about $6000. Which sounds almost right, but something is nagging at me and telling me that's soooooo wrong. Looks like I'm making a trip to Student Accounts tomorrow to get it straigtened out. We start registering next week. EEP! First quarter is ending soon, and I'm scared shitless. If the rest of this year goes by as fast as this quarter has, I'm fucked with a capitol F. I have no savings, no plans, no prospects, and no idea what the fuck I want to do.
Ah, life. Waits till you're down and then kicks you in the head.
Good times.
Has started its bi-monthly downhill slant. Ugh.
This weekend I got tipped really really well at work, so it's a plus because it means that I can pay all my bills this month. But because I worked all weekend, I didn't get to my homework until last night (which, my fault, not blaming work or anything else). Realized that I have a paper due today, which I thought I could get done in a couple of hours. I worked on it for about 3 last night until almost four o'clock this morning and finally got fed up and went to sleep. It's for this damn history class, and I've only gotten about 1/4 of it written. It's due at 5:45, so I'm hoping I'll finish it between 1:30 and 5:00 this afternoon in time to print it out and whatnot.
And then, all weekend, the dramatic episode I mentioned before was kind of bugging me. I went out with Fernando and everyone after work Saturday, and he gave me some pretty good advice: get over it, stop worrying about it, and move on. Yeah yeah, simple stuff I should have thought about, but it's easier to do when you hear it from someone else, you know? Anyway, that's my decision. I think it wastrepkos that used the scab analogy, and I'm applying it to this. Doesn't matter who's right and who's wrong because what's done is done, and you can't undo it. So here's me dropping it here for good and letting it die.
Along with that, I've thought about it and decided not to change my LJ handle. It's not worth it. I've been chocgood84 for almost four years now. That'd be like throwing away a diary because someone didn't like the cover of it. So, I'm still here and plan to be. But, as much as I don't like it, I'll be locking a few more entries from now on. On the other hand, friend's filters are nice little treats, eh?
And now I have to go to statistics...
Actually, life doesn't suck quite so much now that I think about it.
This weekend I got tipped really really well at work, so it's a plus because it means that I can pay all my bills this month. But because I worked all weekend, I didn't get to my homework until last night (which, my fault, not blaming work or anything else). Realized that I have a paper due today, which I thought I could get done in a couple of hours. I worked on it for about 3 last night until almost four o'clock this morning and finally got fed up and went to sleep. It's for this damn history class, and I've only gotten about 1/4 of it written. It's due at 5:45, so I'm hoping I'll finish it between 1:30 and 5:00 this afternoon in time to print it out and whatnot.
And then, all weekend, the dramatic episode I mentioned before was kind of bugging me. I went out with Fernando and everyone after work Saturday, and he gave me some pretty good advice: get over it, stop worrying about it, and move on. Yeah yeah, simple stuff I should have thought about, but it's easier to do when you hear it from someone else, you know? Anyway, that's my decision. I think it was
trepkos that used the scab analogy, and I'm applying it to this. Doesn't matter who's right and who's wrong because what's done is done, and you can't undo it. So here's me dropping it here for good and letting it die.Along with that, I've thought about it and decided not to change my LJ handle. It's not worth it. I've been chocgood84 for almost four years now. That'd be like throwing away a diary because someone didn't like the cover of it. So, I'm still here and plan to be. But, as much as I don't like it, I'll be locking a few more entries from now on. On the other hand, friend's filters are nice little treats, eh?
And now I have to go to statistics...
Actually, life doesn't suck quite so much now that I think about it.
Oh ye gods in heaven, how I weep in wearyness and praise at your feet.
Er, something like that.
I just finished desiginging the web survey for my research study. That was one of the most tedius sets of three hours in my life. But now it's done. It's really truly finished. All that's left is to slap a consent form on the sucker and publish it to the web, pending IRB approval of course. And then I'm going to need all of *your* help, but I'll talk more about that later. Right now I'm going to go reply to LJ comments instead of finishing the IRB form like I should be doing.
Also, next week I get my research assistant. I get a research assistant, like, get to be in *charge*. I'm thinking starbucks and a shoeshine, neh?
Er, something like that.
I just finished desiginging the web survey for my research study. That was one of the most tedius sets of three hours in my life. But now it's done. It's really truly finished. All that's left is to slap a consent form on the sucker and publish it to the web, pending IRB approval of course. And then I'm going to need all of *your* help, but I'll talk more about that later. Right now I'm going to go reply to LJ comments instead of finishing the IRB form like I should be doing.
Also, next week I get my research assistant. I get a research assistant, like, get to be in *charge*. I'm thinking starbucks and a shoeshine, neh?
See, just about any student I know has a recurring nightmare about walking into class one day and finding out that there's a major exam. Hypothetically speaking, a midterm. In a class that said student has, hypothetically, only attended three times in four weeks and has never read the required chapters.
Said student would be...me. Oops.
I walked into my Abnormal Psychology class only to find out that the midterm is *today*, not next week like I thought. And being the big procrasonator that I am, I haven't done the reading because I figured I still had a week to do it. So basically, I've attended a total of three out of eight lectures and read only the introductory chapter of the textbook. Luckily, the entire exam consisted of 50 multiple choice questions basically covering information we mostly learned in Intro.
I figure there's one of three possible outcomes for this scenario. 1: I was brilliant and aced it, 2: I was a bastard and failed it, or 3: I got a solid C. Though I'm hoping for the first, I'm almost positive it was the second. I mean, there were a bunch of questions any moron who has half a mind a shred of common sense should have known. Like: Who is considered the founder of psychoanalysis? Come on, now. But then there were other questions like: Somatigensis was a result of: WTF?
In short, Oops.
Said student would be...me. Oops.
I walked into my Abnormal Psychology class only to find out that the midterm is *today*, not next week like I thought. And being the big procrasonator that I am, I haven't done the reading because I figured I still had a week to do it. So basically, I've attended a total of three out of eight lectures and read only the introductory chapter of the textbook. Luckily, the entire exam consisted of 50 multiple choice questions basically covering information we mostly learned in Intro.
I figure there's one of three possible outcomes for this scenario. 1: I was brilliant and aced it, 2: I was a bastard and failed it, or 3: I got a solid C. Though I'm hoping for the first, I'm almost positive it was the second. I mean, there were a bunch of questions any moron who has half a mind a shred of common sense should have known. Like: Who is considered the founder of psychoanalysis? Come on, now. But then there were other questions like: Somatigensis was a result of: WTF?
In short, Oops.
Got my Statistics II exam yesterday - I didn't do as well as I liked, but I still managed to get the top score when the class average was 60%.
Just took my next History and Systems quiz and got a 90%.
Checked my History scores - two 90 %'s on the short tests and a 95% on the presentation.
Maybe this is the good news at the end of an awful week. I think I should treat myself to some...um, I have no clue what to do to celebrate.
Just took my next History and Systems quiz and got a 90%.
Checked my History scores - two 90 %'s on the short tests and a 95% on the presentation.
Maybe this is the good news at the end of an awful week. I think I should treat myself to some...um, I have no clue what to do to celebrate.
Why yes, it is an appocalypse. Actually I'm just trying to make sure no one forgets me ;)
Title: Learn to be Lonely Chapter 11/?
Author:chocgood84
Rating: NC-17 for brief violence and sexual content
Pairing: BtVS Spike/Xander
Author’s Note: Yes, I am aware that the timeline is a little screwed up and that Giles didn’t own the Magic Box until after Adam and after Dawn arrived. But in my reality, who’s Dawn? Adam what? Also, a huge spanking thanks tokitty_poker1 for being my official L2BL beta.
Disclaimer: These character’s aren’t mine, never were; I don’t get any profit for this hobby, so don’t sue – Thanks.
Warning: Brief violence, nudity, and hetero and homo sexual content and situations. And some h0t man-luvin.
( Chapter 11 )
Title: Learn to be Lonely Chapter 11/?
Author:
chocgood84Rating: NC-17 for brief violence and sexual content
Pairing: BtVS Spike/Xander
Author’s Note: Yes, I am aware that the timeline is a little screwed up and that Giles didn’t own the Magic Box until after Adam and after Dawn arrived. But in my reality, who’s Dawn? Adam what? Also, a huge spanking thanks to
kitty_poker1 for being my official L2BL beta.Disclaimer: These character’s aren’t mine, never were; I don’t get any profit for this hobby, so don’t sue – Thanks.
Warning: Brief violence, nudity, and hetero and homo sexual content and situations. And some h0t man-luvin.
( Chapter 11 )
Was wondering when that would come back.
Why yes, today I am angry. And quite frankly, I'm enjoying being angry and mean-spirited. I've had it coming for quite a while, and now? It's here.
More on this later, as the day progresses.
Why yes, today I am angry. And quite frankly, I'm enjoying being angry and mean-spirited. I've had it coming for quite a while, and now? It's here.
More on this later, as the day progresses.
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