Wander

[synapticjava]

Okay, so it looks like there's a 99.9% chance that my school is going to close next year. That is, a year before I graduate. Which means I have to find another school. This kinda makes me sad. On the one hand, Barat's the place I've been happiest. I've grown up a lot here, and I had my first adult relationship with someone I actually loved here. There's a lot of things here that will be hard to give up and say good-bye to. And the thought of having spent all this money on a "DePaul education" only to transfer to a different school kinda ticks me off. But let's face it, being at Barat of DePaul is bad enough. I don't think I'd be able to do 100% pure DePaul without going stark raving mad. *shrugs* I guess it'll be a good thing to go to a cheaper school, you know, save money and stuff from loans and what-not. But still... All my closest friends are here, and we all know how well I am with keeping in touch.

But, on the other hand, I think it'll be good for me. To finally be out all on my own, a definate change of scenery. Then I can fully become myself without feeling all shy and my behavior opressed and all that jazz. And then I can, like frolic9, be all growed up. Especially if I can find a school in the city. I wanna go somewhere where I can find myself and all that. A lot of people are trying to convince me to transfer to the LPC, but I wanna be free dammit. I don't know. I guess now I start the endless search for schools, visits, open houses and meetings with financial aid people and admissions people. Ugh. Wasn't that one of the reasons I came here anyway? to not have to deal with all that. Bleck. I think I need a xanex.

Comments

[karenbear.livejournal.com]

Oh man, that sucks! Searching for the right school in the first place is bad enough, but then having to do it again? Poor you. :(

It's cool that you're putting a good spin on it though. I suppose there really isn't any point is getting all down and depressed over an inevitability, and a change of scenery can be a great thing. :D

Good luck sweetie.

Thank you

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that someone understands! Yeah, the postiveness: Proof I've grown up. lol.

[nightsashke.livejournal.com]

just a note of caution...sometimes we look so hard to find ourselves...we miss it when we do....

I know

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Good point, I learned that a while a go. i think it was freshman year. What I mean is I want my own life, I think.

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[nightsashke.livejournal.com]

hehe you think?...ahh you have much to learn my young padawan learner.....

Re: I know

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Grrrr

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[nightsashke.livejournal.com]

*pet*

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[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Ooooooo *purr*