grrr

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I don't know why, but I feel yucky today.  Physically and not-pysically.  I don't want to go to work. Really, all I want to do is just curl up in my chair and wrap a blanket around me and do nothing all day.  Especially don't want to go to work where I"ll have to plaster a giant fake smile on my face and pretend everything's hunky-dory.  It really sucks - There's days that I feel all happy and yay and I can fly and whatnot, usually for no apparent reason.  I like those days.  And then theres these days where it's not so much.  I wouldn't say depressed (yuck-not going there!), just kind of...blah.  I can't describe it.  I just keep thinking that it feels like I"ll never get out of school, never move on, never find that one person I want to be with forever, never be fully happy.  It's a pretty crappy feeling.  Well at least the good news is that I'll pass.  It always does.