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synapticjava) wrote2009-02-09 02:39 am
synapticjava) wrote2009-02-09 02:39 am
Old vices die hard...
Two six packs and a bottle of Jack Daniels later, and I'm hoping I will be able to sleep tonight. I have to work tomorrow, so hopefully it won't be too bad. Thank god for Ibuprofen.
I'm dealing. Probably not in the healthiest of ways, but in the best way I know how. This just seems different. Harder. One day, I'm getting married, and the next I'm throwing everything I can that reminds me of him and us into a black hefty bag. I think it makes it even worse this time because I'm more isolated...more "alone" now. I really only have a few close friends, none of whom are especially available. Anyway, the point is, this sucks. I haven't called my mom yet. She'll be pissed I didn't tell her right away, but it's one of those things where - how can I bother her with my life when hers just is so terrible?
Sounds about right, though, huh? One little issue blending into another into another?
Well, now that I've got a little buzz going I think I'm going to use it for sleep. I'm only praying I won't have anymore nightmares. That would be kinda nice. Some kinda relief would be good.
I'm dealing. Probably not in the healthiest of ways, but in the best way I know how. This just seems different. Harder. One day, I'm getting married, and the next I'm throwing everything I can that reminds me of him and us into a black hefty bag. I think it makes it even worse this time because I'm more isolated...more "alone" now. I really only have a few close friends, none of whom are especially available. Anyway, the point is, this sucks. I haven't called my mom yet. She'll be pissed I didn't tell her right away, but it's one of those things where - how can I bother her with my life when hers just is so terrible?
Sounds about right, though, huh? One little issue blending into another into another?
Well, now that I've got a little buzz going I think I'm going to use it for sleep. I'm only praying I won't have anymore nightmares. That would be kinda nice. Some kinda relief would be good.
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Why not?
Sometimes that's good medicine.
Time heals all wounds - nice cliche, but, true - JD numbs the ache and soothes the spirit while you wait for the time healing part. :D
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Just try and breathe, man. Breathe, go about your day, push it aside. Let yourself deal in the unconscious way we all deal until your conscious can handle it.