*is loved*

[synapticjava]

I'm passing out as we speak, but I needed to write this down. As of this moment, I have never felt more loved, wanted, happy, or right in my entire life. I just got my christmas gift from Justin and Cari. It's a totally corny girly gay gift (lavander scented bath set), but it speaks volumes to me. For one, I love it because it's something I've always secretly wanted but never would buy it for myself - not because it's expensive, but because it's a little too fem for a man to buy for himself. And for the other - more important reason; Cari put a lot of thought into it. She called Tom and asked him if i would like it, what my favorite scent is (he wasn't exactly right...but that just makes it better somehow)...I don't know why, but it just teared me up. Also, tonight was Cass's third birthday party, and there's something about seeing a child open up your gift and seeing the look on their face that just makes you feel amazing. She threw her arms around me and said "I love you, Uncle Brad!"

It's just that this is such a far cry from where I was a few months ago. I finally feel like I have a place in the world, now. I have nieces and nephews and friends and family who love me. I have a boyfriend that I - much to my surprise and enjoyment - I fall a little more in love with every day. I have a job that, though I may not enjoy, I'm good at, and where people need me.

I'm just on such an incredible high right now.

Comments

[wildflowerfever.livejournal.com]

Happy holidays, Brad.

I'm glad for you.

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Heather:)

You too, eh!