Different and the Same

[synapticjava]

My trip home was a fairly decent one. Spent it mostly with my family, hung out with a few friends I haven't seen for a long while. My nephew is, obviously, adorable. My brother's going to be a really good dad. And now, he's married. It's very strange for me. I was always so ashamed of him, and now I'm really proud of him, a little jealous, even. Mostly proud. And his wife's a good woman, too.

Genevieve called, and we talked. I knew it would happen someday, but truth be told I thought it would take longer. She's leaving Chicago, and she was explaining to me why, and it was all the same things I said when I left. She said she finally understands why I left. This is also very strange. I'm finally settling into this completely on my own / alone feeling, and all these old friends are coming out of the woodwork. I don't know if I'm ready to have so much of my past back in my life.

Everything's so encredibly different, but also so much the same. I feel like I've gone through a lot of changes but it's not enough.

Comments

[tabaqui]

I'm glad you had a good trip, bay-bee.
Welcome home.
:)

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Thanks, lov:)

[moonfire77.livejournal.com]

Everything's so encredibly different, but also so much the same. I feel like I've gone through a lot of changes but it's not enough.

Yeah that's how I feel a lot of the time.