synapticjava: (brianjustinhome)
synapticjava ([personal profile] synapticjava) wrote2007-04-01 04:08 pm
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Perfect song

for today.  Geesh.  I forgot what it can be like out here in the middle of nowhere.  There's a storm blowing in, and I can smell it.  God, I love this.  I'm typing at Frank's computer, looking out his bedroom window and across the unplanted field behind his house - you can see for miles.  Every second that I'm here I fall more and more in love with it, settle a little more, and regret going back to the city.

I met Frank for lunch, and even something small and stupid like that was so incredibly nice.

I'm falling here.  Chicago's feels like it's a million miles away, a million years ago.  I can breathe.  All of those stupid petty little things that I think about constantly seem like they're just...gone.  After lunch, I said I was going to go wash my car and he asked if I was heading back home afterwards (referring to his house) and without thinking about it I said yeah.  Something so encredibly simple, but it means so much. 

Just for shits and giggles, I stopped by an open house for a new subdivision on the way back.  Just a cute little two bedroom with a nice big yard.  Did the tour and everything, and when I asked what payments/mortgage would be, they said it'd be what amounts to $200 less than what I'm paying for my studio in Chicago.  Which makes me 1. Ill, and 2. hopeful.  How awesome would it be if in less than a year, I owned a house (or more accurately, was paying a bank who owned my house)?  Things to think about that don't bring me down or feel impossible.

It's just...nice.
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[personal profile] tabaqui 2007-04-02 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
It's very nice. I'm so glad for you.
:)