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Only not very. Just needed something to take the edge off. Tomorrow is graduation, which means life as I know it is...different. I don't want to say over, because it isn't. Nothing is ever over because it's always there, inside of you. But either way it really sucks because I feel like I'm losing so much. This is the place that tought me who I am and how to be the person I want to be. This is the place that me and Chris met and loved together at. Barat is so special to me, and it's killing me that it's over. I haven't let myself feel anything about it up until now, and now it feels like...it feels like I'm Peter Pan being forced out of Neverland. And I hate it.
Chris is here now, and I think that hurts more than anything. He can't even look at me. When we all went to the Moon, he wouldn't even speak to me, and I know it's stupid, but I feel like it was something *I* did. Like, maybe I did something that has made him hate me. And it hurts soo much that we can't even be friends anymore.
I guess this is where I get all cliche and wish that things would never change and that I didn't have to grow up and didn't have to be alone.
I hurt so much right now.
And now I'm crying.
Chris is here now, and I think that hurts more than anything. He can't even look at me. When we all went to the Moon, he wouldn't even speak to me, and I know it's stupid, but I feel like it was something *I* did. Like, maybe I did something that has made him hate me. And it hurts soo much that we can't even be friends anymore.
I guess this is where I get all cliche and wish that things would never change and that I didn't have to grow up and didn't have to be alone.
I hurt so much right now.
And now I'm crying.