I'm so done

[synapticjava]

I fucking give up.

I'm in a god-damn awful mood, and why can't people just fucking respect the fact that I don't like to smoke pot anymore? Why can't they understand the fact that I dated a FUCKING DEALER and that things didn't go WELL.

Fuck, I'm sick of this shit.

And I'm sick of feeling incompetent and stupid all the time. Fuck this.

Comments

[trepkos.livejournal.com]

I think people who take drugs find it hard to believe that not taking drugs isn't a moral judgement on them - a bit like people who drink alcohol, and feel they must get others to do so - so they try to get you to take them, just so they don't feel you're on the moral high ground, looking down on them.
My best friend was an inveterate drug taker - he'd take anything anyone gave him apart from heroin - and he had a hard time believing that my non-drug taking was simply a matter of self preservation (don't take sweets from strangers!) rather than disapproval.
It's not stupid not to take drugs - if something goes wrong, there's no one you can sue!

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

I just personally don't like the feeling of not being in control of my own body. And yes, I suppose that when I find out someone I'm attracted to or am interested in tells me they smoke pot, they drop quite a bit from my radar. But it's more survival than anything, I think. I just don't want to go through that again.