I'm so done

[synapticjava]

I fucking give up.

I'm in a god-damn awful mood, and why can't people just fucking respect the fact that I don't like to smoke pot anymore? Why can't they understand the fact that I dated a FUCKING DEALER and that things didn't go WELL.

Fuck, I'm sick of this shit.

And I'm sick of feeling incompetent and stupid all the time. Fuck this.

Comments

[ex-claudia69504.livejournal.com]

Trust me. They will never get it nor respect it because in their minds....they still see you smoking.

It's stupid. It's illogical. But, it's how it is.

*hugs*

But know I've been there, done that...if it helps.

[moonfire77.livejournal.com]

People (except us of course) are idiots. Pay no attention to people who talk out their asses with no idea what they're talking about (probably me included; if so, I apologize.)

[trepkos.livejournal.com]

I think people who take drugs find it hard to believe that not taking drugs isn't a moral judgement on them - a bit like people who drink alcohol, and feel they must get others to do so - so they try to get you to take them, just so they don't feel you're on the moral high ground, looking down on them.
My best friend was an inveterate drug taker - he'd take anything anyone gave him apart from heroin - and he had a hard time believing that my non-drug taking was simply a matter of self preservation (don't take sweets from strangers!) rather than disapproval.
It's not stupid not to take drugs - if something goes wrong, there's no one you can sue!

[rivulet027.livejournal.com]

What everyone else said.

*hug*

[lunabee34.livejournal.com]

I agree ten thousand times with what trepkos says. And here's my ten cents: You are in control of your own body; what you want to put in it or not, who you wanna fuck or not, what you wanna do with it or not. It belongs to Brad, and not anybody else. Screw everybody else. Anybody that gives you shit for not smoking up anymore is just an idiot. The same thing happened to me when my husband and I quit smoking pot all the time; our "friends" accused me of trying to steal him away from them and forcing him to not smoke up. It was very much a case of seeing our actions as a moral judgement on them, when really, we were just broke and tired of being wasted all the time.

*smooch*

[caviling]

Fuck drugs. No, really. I have stories. (Not stories about me doing drugs; nothing that interesting.) But man. Stories.

[fishbutt.livejournal.com]

You shouldn't feel incompetent and stupid because they make you feel that way. Fuck them!

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

*hugs*

It does help.

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Hah. Well, you certainly remember Weed Central, aka Neverland College, aka Barat. *head desk*

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

I just personally don't like the feeling of not being in control of my own body. And yes, I suppose that when I find out someone I'm attracted to or am interested in tells me they smoke pot, they drop quite a bit from my radar. But it's more survival than anything, I think. I just don't want to go through that again.

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Thanks. *hug*

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Well, the thing is, having been through my own experiences, I do think taking drugs is stupid. So on that, I guess that could be offensive. But again, it's my own idea, my own personal belief. I'm not saying to them "you're idiots and I hate you for doing it", I'm saying that "i don't want to do it because for me to do it would be stupid."

I'm so going to become a hermit.

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Just irritates me, and makes me not want those "friends" to be friends, you know?

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight*

[lunabee34.livejournal.com]

Hermit!Brad. *muses*

You'd need lots of DVDs, so you should go ahead and buy that QaF season whatever. *snicker*

*smooch*

BTW what does the french on this icon mean, dearie?

[moonfire77.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah. Fondly. Except for the backbiting and rumors.

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Ah! *rebuke*!

*hugs*

The french translates to: "What have I done?" It's lines from a song by the same title, which is on his CD.

[lunabee34.livejournal.com]

ASH has a CD, huh? Oooohhhhh *skeery look in Lorraine's eye* LOL

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Yup - Music For Elevators. It's really quite good - very tribal/folksy.