*deep cleansing breath*

[synapticjava]

Okay...Frankie just came in. As in, the hottest boy I have ever in my life met. He's taking a class here, so it looks like I'll get to see him twice a week! *squee*

See, the thing is - he's got a perfect body, and while he was talking to Grace I couldn't take my eyes off of him. I *want* that. Not him per se, although yes that's true. I want someone to look at me like that. And it's never going to happen unless I do something right now. So...

I'm quitting smoking. Effective immediately, I'm cutting back. I'm only going to allow myself to smoke three more cigarettes today - one at 6, one at 10, and one when I feel like I want it. I'm going to do that for the rest of the week, through the weekend, and then Monday I start on the patch. I'm really scared and sort of having a panic attack, hyperventalating or whatever. But I *have* to do this.

Also, with no smoking, I *will* go to the gym 5 nights a week. I *will* start regulating what I'm eating and drinking.

It's time and...I don't know, I just feel like if I don't do it now I'll never do it and I'll be a fat smoking single queer the rest of my life. So...help.

Comments

[adikala.livejournal.com]

starting with a high number never seems to work.. cause you look at it and youre like 'WOW. five times a week. thats a lot.' and then you do 5, but the next week, youre busy and you say 'oh, ill make up for it the next week' and next week comes and the cycle repeats until you realise that you only went to the gym about 15 times. or maybe youre just cooler than most of us like that. i dont know. good luck, though :) and yay for not smoking

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Actually, you're right. So for now, I'm putting myself in at 3 times a week, and days that I'm bored or feel like it, an extra hour.

[adikala.livejournal.com]

yea, its just... i tried that... REALLY excercising 5 days a week... and it happened just like that before i realised i wasnt doing it at all... so i DID start at 3... and have worked up to 4... im honestly NOT motivated enough to do 5 :P but thats really cool. now all you need is something to keep you motivated! like.. i dunno what. a goal. or a friend whod like to do it too.