*deep cleansing breath*

[synapticjava]

Okay...Frankie just came in. As in, the hottest boy I have ever in my life met. He's taking a class here, so it looks like I'll get to see him twice a week! *squee*

See, the thing is - he's got a perfect body, and while he was talking to Grace I couldn't take my eyes off of him. I *want* that. Not him per se, although yes that's true. I want someone to look at me like that. And it's never going to happen unless I do something right now. So...

I'm quitting smoking. Effective immediately, I'm cutting back. I'm only going to allow myself to smoke three more cigarettes today - one at 6, one at 10, and one when I feel like I want it. I'm going to do that for the rest of the week, through the weekend, and then Monday I start on the patch. I'm really scared and sort of having a panic attack, hyperventalating or whatever. But I *have* to do this.

Also, with no smoking, I *will* go to the gym 5 nights a week. I *will* start regulating what I'm eating and drinking.

It's time and...I don't know, I just feel like if I don't do it now I'll never do it and I'll be a fat smoking single queer the rest of my life. So...help.

Comments

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Actually, you're right. So for now, I'm putting myself in at 3 times a week, and days that I'm bored or feel like it, an extra hour.

[adikala.livejournal.com]

yea, its just... i tried that... REALLY excercising 5 days a week... and it happened just like that before i realised i wasnt doing it at all... so i DID start at 3... and have worked up to 4... im honestly NOT motivated enough to do 5 :P but thats really cool. now all you need is something to keep you motivated! like.. i dunno what. a goal. or a friend whod like to do it too.