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synapticjava) wrote2005-02-12 10:55 am
synapticjava) wrote2005-02-12 10:55 am
GOOOOOOOOOD Morning, Viet - er, LJ Land
Hey, when's the last time *you* woke up in a great mood rip roaring and ready to go. Cuz I? Could take on an army of 4 year olds right now. *bounce* It's a beeeeyouteefull Saturday morning here on the north shore. The sun is shining, the last bit of snow is melting, and I haven't been in this good of a mood in what feels like forever.
You know, the past couple weeks we have been studying Existentialism in Counseling Theories. The basic premise of the theory is that we're all going to die. You can't hide from it or run from it or escape from it. Could die in five minutes, two days or twenty years. You just never know. So, knowing that you're going to die, why would want to waste precious time on stupid baggage and unhappy situations. We *always* have choices - inaction is a choice. Existentialism is all about freedom and responsibility - we have the freedom to choose our own path, we only have to be responisble for the consequences of those decisions.
So I made a decision - fuck it. I'm so sick and tired of being down and flipping out about everything (if you happen to remember last week's freak-out post) and worrying about too much and being stressed and miserable. Nope, no more. Well, a little stress is bound to happen - it's a human condition and actually a healthy reaction to modern society. What I'm talking about is going overboard. No more! I'm tired of it and it doesn't accomplish anything. I control my destiny and my environment and if I'm unhappy or stressed out I need to decide to make a change. Stress is my consequence of putting things off till the last minute and the consequence of not dealing with anything. So here it is. I'm deciding to get healthy and make a lifestyle change. No more weight-loss "goals" or expecting anything. I need to change the way that I eat and excercise. I need to change my outlook. I need to decide to move on from Chris (what, you didn't think he'd make an appearance here?). I've been letting myself dwindle over him for too long. I need to get on with my life and I'm making the decision that it's going to be a *good* one. Because only I can decide that. So I'm going to call him and tell him I'm coming for a visit and if he wants to get together - that's great. But if he doesn't, that's perfectly okay too. Because I get it now, I understand. And I'm leaving it behind.
You know it's funny - my favorite musical is RENT which is extremely centered around death and life. The whole theme of the show is "Forget Regret or life is your's to miss". It's always been one of my mottos, my advice for people. I think now I can actually believe it. I think now I can learn how to 'live'.
Well, that was so very "Dr. Phil" (man I hate that guy!)
And now my list for today involves:
And now to go play RENT and get started.
You know, the past couple weeks we have been studying Existentialism in Counseling Theories. The basic premise of the theory is that we're all going to die. You can't hide from it or run from it or escape from it. Could die in five minutes, two days or twenty years. You just never know. So, knowing that you're going to die, why would want to waste precious time on stupid baggage and unhappy situations. We *always* have choices - inaction is a choice. Existentialism is all about freedom and responsibility - we have the freedom to choose our own path, we only have to be responisble for the consequences of those decisions.
So I made a decision - fuck it. I'm so sick and tired of being down and flipping out about everything (if you happen to remember last week's freak-out post) and worrying about too much and being stressed and miserable. Nope, no more. Well, a little stress is bound to happen - it's a human condition and actually a healthy reaction to modern society. What I'm talking about is going overboard. No more! I'm tired of it and it doesn't accomplish anything. I control my destiny and my environment and if I'm unhappy or stressed out I need to decide to make a change. Stress is my consequence of putting things off till the last minute and the consequence of not dealing with anything. So here it is. I'm deciding to get healthy and make a lifestyle change. No more weight-loss "goals" or expecting anything. I need to change the way that I eat and excercise. I need to change my outlook. I need to decide to move on from Chris (what, you didn't think he'd make an appearance here?). I've been letting myself dwindle over him for too long. I need to get on with my life and I'm making the decision that it's going to be a *good* one. Because only I can decide that. So I'm going to call him and tell him I'm coming for a visit and if he wants to get together - that's great. But if he doesn't, that's perfectly okay too. Because I get it now, I understand. And I'm leaving it behind.
You know it's funny - my favorite musical is RENT which is extremely centered around death and life. The whole theme of the show is "Forget Regret or life is your's to miss". It's always been one of my mottos, my advice for people. I think now I can actually believe it. I think now I can learn how to 'live'.
Well, that was so very "Dr. Phil" (man I hate that guy!)
And now my list for today involves:
- Cleaning like mad before I die of dust poisening
- Doing Laundry
- Do dishes
- Throw out *all* my junkfood and soda. Er, give it away because that would be wasteful.
- Finish three of my five articles summaries for Child Psych
- Do a rough draft of my roughdraft revision for Tuesday's Research Methods - do the final revision tomorrow
- Write my obituary for Counseling Theories
- Write my Egg summary for Counseling Theories
- Write my journal for Counseling Theories
- Give myself a manicure as a reward for not biting my nails for TWO WEEKS now!
- Perhaps get to Session Three of Kin to Sorrow (no promises)
- Get some more work done on the Sooper Seekrit Project
- Get the next part of Sunlight's plot pounded out for next week
- Work on my ficathon assignment - My Muse WILL cooperate
- Get in an hour at the gym
- Call Chris
- Oh, and *hug* you all!
And now to go play RENT and get started.
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If it's not too personal a question, I was wondering how your parents handle you being gay. I know firsthand that Protestants in general aren't overwhelming with their loving kindness towards homosexuals.
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S'a funny thing, isn't it? Though I lived with my parents, I went to church and spent a lot of time with my grandma, so she's the one that's responsible for what religion I was raised - church every Sunday to Bethany Baptist for the first 7 years, and Homewood Evangelical ever since.
My mom's Lutheran, my dad was raised Catholic in the 50's, and my Grandma went back and forth. You can imagine the fun I had.
As for the gay thing - my mom freaked for a couple days, then pretended it wasn't true, and she's okay with it (as long as she doesn't have to SEE it). My dad, stepdad actually, was suprisingly supportive - his initial reaction was shock, but right away he was all "love you no matter what". As of now, my grandparents are the only ones who don't know. They'd take it the hardest and since I'm so close with them, I don't want to hurt 'em. It's not me being ashamed, it's me caring about them now that their health is deteriorating, you know?
Sorry this was so long winded *rolls eyes*
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That's pretty much how I see it. I'm kind of my grandma's favorite, and it would kill her. I don't think my grandpa would understand, and if he did, he probably wouldn't care. The man's 84 years old this year. Don't know what I'll do when the day comes. *sigh*